The brown haired boy entered his lovers room, his heart aches every time he remember that the boy he married can't even remember who he is in his life.
He saw the boy's journal on the table with an envelope beside it. He heave a sigh as the door open. "Dr. Kim?"Seungmin wipe his tears and face him. "Hyunjin, how are you?"the boy sat down on his bed. "
"I feel better, but sadly still the same. But why are you here? We don't have any appointments today."Seungmin sit down beside the boy and smile weakly. "c-can I hug you?"the boy nod his head, Seungmin hugs Hyunjin tight, he is longing for the boy even how much he wanted to he can't even tell him.
"Dr. Kim, is Seungmin coming back?"The younger boy flustered he don't know what to say, he don't know how can he'll say Seungmin is him. "I hate myself because I can't even remember his face aside from his name." Seungmin managed to smile and look at Hyunjin. "Don't force yourself to remember if you can't, but you're getting better, look you remember his name."The younger boy chuckled and gave Hyunjin his medicines. "Better drink this okay? Continue drinking the medicines I gave you so you'll retrieve your memory faster."
Kim Seungmin is a Psychiatrist, he was Hyunjin's personal doctor. The boy was suffering from Anterograde Amnesia, he forget what happen in every 15 mins but Seungmin is there to help him.
The brown haired boy is secretly helping him, Seungmin stares at Hyunjin who is currently sleeping now after drinking his medicines. He heave a sigh and get the sticky note and pen in his coat the he put the first one on the alam clock saying "Wake up sunshine, you need to take a shower." After that he went inside the bathroom and write down another message. "Hyunjin-ah after shower brush your teeth, then go downstairs in the kitchen for breakfast."
Seungmin heave a sigh and walks towards Hyunjin, he stole a kiss on the older's lips and goes out his room. No matter how badly he want to claim him as his right now he still can't, the boy knew him as Dr. Kim his Psychiatrist, and for Hyunjin he was no one but only his doctor, even how hard he tried he knew Hyunjin's illness doesn't have any cure, the medicines just make Hyunjin remember important things he should do every day.
Seungmin left and will be back in the morning before Hyunjin will wake up, he always make him a breakfast and that's how his life is, he still want to do the things he should do as Hyunjin's partner.
Pains in his chest he want to let out all of it, one day he knew all of the pains inside will burst out but he always try not to but right now it was too much he badly want to tell Hyunjin but at the end of the day he know the boy will eventually forget it.
"Seungmin!"he saw Chan rushing towards him, a small smile crept on the younger's lips. "Yes hyung?"The older wraps his arms around the younger's shoulder and pulled him inside the nearest noodle house. "Let's eat."
"noodles? So cheap of you! You're earning a lot of money as a surgeon yet you're gonna make me eat in here, lets eat in a fancy restaurant."The younger was just kidding, but the older always took everything he said seriously.
"Alright lets go eat in a fancy restaurant."
"Hyung I was just kidding."
"Whatever, I want to treat you anyway beside I got my monthly allowance, I have money and I will pay for it don't worry."Seungmin's eyes sparkled, despite of everything he's going through Chan was there to help him cope up from the pain, the older knew someone else own Seungmin but that doesn't stop him from admiring the younger boy.
"So how's Hyunjin?"Chan asked. "Still the same Hyung, and it hurt so much that he can't even remember my face, and who really am in his life but he remember my name."The older smile, the younger knew even Chan was smiling brightly those eyes of him can't even lie how hurt he is.
"Seungmin, why don't you try admitting him in the hospital for a better treatment?"
"His illness doesn't have any cure hyung, operation can't even help him."He sigh, when they finished eating, Chan walked Seungmin until they reach his apartment. "Dr. Kim, don't lose hope Hyunjin will get better you're the best psychiatrist I knew, keep fighting."
When he entered his apartment he flops down on the sofa, he wasn't just tired physically but also emotionally, what wrong did he do to deserve all of this, why of all people, why Hyunjin have that kind of illness.
It's always the same set up for the both of them and it's already a year since Hyunjin became ill, but Seungmin never get tired of taking care of the older boy but then he have to leave and that what makes him stay up coz who's gonna take care of Hyunjin when he's gone abroad. He went to Hyunjin's place early although he feel heavy Seungmin doesn't care at all, he made him a breakfast and write another note and stick it on the fridge.
From now on please take a good care of yourself, I made you a breakfast so better eat. It was inside the fridge, that food don't have a lot of onions because I know you don't like it, I'm sorry that I can't stay longer but I'm always here guiding you, I'm leaving soon so you better know what you're going to do everyday for you to survive, I'll always leave voice messages every morning before you wake up so always check your phone alright? I love you so much Hyunjin, I hope someday you'll realize who really am in your life, stay strong coz I'll be back.
Sincerely yours,
Dr. Kim Seungmin.
Hyunjin is suffering from an illness called Anterograde amnesia which have no cure at all, he can't be able to create new memories he forget the people he usually just met, and he also forgotten about his past, but never the name Seungmin it was the only thing he remember, Hyunjin knew that he was a burden especially to his Doctor, he wishes he wasn't like this, eventually Dr. Kim will get tired of taking care of him.
Hyunjin sulks at the corner after reading Seungmin's message for him, his heart aches how can he not realize, how can he not recognize the only person he love, all he can do right now is to wait for his Seungmin to comeback, wishing can remember him.
