𝑻𝑯𝑼𝑮 𝑺𝑻𝑹𝑼𝑪𝑻- finished-

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Hey y'all I know I keep dipping and coming back but I miss you guys a lot and I've been meaning to type up a chapter then i go and make a whole entire new book that's literally what I've been doing since the last chapter working on a new book I have so many books in my drafts and all that I wanna share
Love you guys
-mirababbyyy
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Dej
I sat up on the couch staring at izzy just admiring and retaking in his features that I missed and some new ones his hair had grown out a lot so he looked a lil different me and him haven't left the apartment in two days we been ignoring everybody's calls and just been relaxing with eachother I haven't been to the shop or anything

Babeh come here"izzy said standing in the mirror
What"
Commere girl"

I wiggled off the bed basically and walked over to him and stood in front of him
What"
How tall you think he gonna be"
Who Benin"
Yea"
Idk hopefully he be your height honestly"
He most likely is cause height runs in my family"
Ya momma short ya dad tall you tall ej"
Jugg tall to so he should be tall"
Yea he is gonna be a fucking giant"
I know already"
Why when I said ej your mood changed"
Nothing baby"
It seems like something"
It's nothing"he said tickling my foot
Stop"I laughed
Why"
Boy stop"
Whyyy"
Cause imma pee on my damn self"I laughed as I felt trickles of pee coming out
Uh uh ya pissy ass better move"
Shut up"
Better not pee on me or imma cry"he said wining like a puppy
Babe For real talk to me why ya mood change when I mentioned ej"
You just ain't gonna let it go"
You know I'm not going go"
I just feel he's the one that but the blame on you"
Why it could've been everybody"
I know my lil brother you and him were close before I got shot then After he's extra nice to you and I know him he had to have done something to you to be that nice"
Why can't he just be really really nice to me"
Cause ej is nice don't get me wrong but the only time he make it his business or job to be nice to someone he did something to them and tryna make up for it trust me I know he did it to my mama and my pops all the time growing up"
I sighed deeply I didn't wanna tell Izzy cause I knew how he could get it just slipped last night with my emotions and shit but I don't wanna tell him cause I honestly forgave ej and he is sorry and this made me question did Izzy know what I did to Siya cause he's knows everything but not everything
He said that to you"
Izzy look I forgave him aight he ain't mean it it's when we first got to the hospital he was mad"
Look I'm just gonna chill out on him for a min I ain't mad at him I just need some time away from him"
It seem like you need time away from everybody but me"I said lowly
I do it's just finding out they lied still hurts hey you had good reasoning but it take time to forgive"
I get it baby just don't push them away ok cause if I can find it in my stubborn ass heart to forgive them you can to"
That's lil man talking not you"
Shut up"I said slapping his arm
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Trina
Ej em you-got-to-go"
Why" he said kissing me still
Wait"I pulled away
Wassup"
My boyfriend he can walk in here any second and see us"
So my girl can just walk in when you at my crib"
E I know you don't care but I do"
About what his feelings clearly don't if yu fucking wit me while you wit him"he said getting up off the bed

I couldn't say anything to him cause he was fucking right I still was fucking wit ej after I got with my boyfriend Michael it was hard at first I thought I was done with ej and I could wipe my hands with him then I before I knew it i was at ej house or he was at mines and we were fucking I thought that's all it was but it was quite clear that feelings were still there

Look Trina I told you what I wanted"
And you still with ya girlfriend"
Yea cause you wanna be wit me one day next day you love that lame to much"
He ain't a lame"
Then why you still fucking me"
Ej you got all the fucking answers but you still fucking wit me and you saying I'm so confused but you still wit my confused ass"
Cause behind all that wining and lieing you doing you know what the hell you want just to scared to break this nigga heart but what's funny is you already doing that"

He stood in front of me deadass serious I knew I had to stop playing around cause somebody was gonna get hurt and I'm scared it would be me or even worse ej
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Jay
I laid back on my bed thinking I know some question how I'm fucking with dej after she killed Siya or if I'm on the hate train simply cause I seen it coming and that's my family they all I got left siya was never part of that

I was a lil upset when I was told dej did it cause that was my job but I knew dej she was gonna kill her either way shit I'm surprised ej and Jugg didn't do that shit in a heart beat

I'm working on my life cause I feel like the lonely one out of everybody I been lonely for a LONG time nobody to cuddle nun of that I'm just ready to get out there and get the hell on and get out of this bitch called depression

Been like this for to long and nobody noticed it at all