Our Summer || SOOBIN TXT

Eclipse Of Hearts

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Theme Song: Choi Sang Yeop - First Love
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It feels good to hum this song to the vast and open ocean. I feel so at ease, like all the bottled up emotions are being released. The sound of the crashing waves drowns out any other noise around me. I pocket my hands. I envy you ocean.

I think my food should be digested by now. I turn around, Rose and the others might get worried about where I am. But as I turn my head and look up at the path ahead of me. Someone stands in its way. I am unable to reckon the face, his hood is up. As the moonlight reflects on the boulder behind him, then only do I notice. My eyes gawk, it cannot be. How is he even here? My heart races and the anxiety floods right back in. I pull on the sleeves of my hoodie. I will not face him, I will not crumble again. I turn back around, trying my best to walk away, and fast.

"Mia!" Soobin's voice is audible over the loud ocean.

I do not listen. Why is this sand so difficult to walk in?

"Mia, stop." He says again. "Please."

I do this time. I exhale a low breath. Why is he here? I turn around. His hood is down now, revealing that face. The face I tried so hard to forget. I feel silly for liking him. He is too out of reach, our lives are worlds apart. What was I thinking?

I look away, avoiding eye contact. I need to be strong. "What?" I blatantly ask.

He opens his mouth. "How have you been?" He simply asks.

The question is a punch to my chest. "Fine." I force the word out.

He nods. "That's good."

I scoff. Idiot, why did you have to come here. I start to walk, I plan on passing him without a word.

"Mia," he turns around as I walk pass him. "I'm sorry."

I'm sorry. How dare he. "You have nothing to be sorry about." I say without any emotion present.

"No," he carries on. "I do, I lied to you and it is the least that I owe you. An apology."

"Don't expect me to thank you for it."

"Look, I know I hurt you, but it was a mistake." His words hurt even now. "Everyone makes mistakes right? I was hoping that we could just move past it, and carry on with our lives, you know."

Carry on with our lives? I scoff, and I know he hears me. "Yeah."

"I hope we can still be friends, Mia."

Now that hurt even worse. The pain clogs my throat and it takes a lot in me to let the words out without my voice wobbling. "I don't think so. It's best if we go our separate ways. You can go back to your fame and fortune and forget about ever meeting me. And. . . I can go back to my life and pretend like nothing ever happened." And pretend like my heart does not hurt at the mention of your name.

I breathe in. "Goodbye Soobin."

"Mia." He calls again but this time I do not listen. I ignore his call until I am far away. Far away from his overpowering presence on my emotions. The tears fall and I rapidly wipe them away. Why does it still hurt so much? I hate it. I just wish I did not feel anything. That I could be an emotionless being.

By the time I walk into the house Mi Rae and Rose are still up watching a drama. They are already all washed up and dressed in their pajamas.

"Mia," Rose gleams. "What took you so long?"

"Met someone special along the way?" Mi Rae smirks.

"I'm going to go wash up," I say. "Where's So Hyun?"

"Uh, she went to bed early," Mi Rae says.

"Is everything okay with your dad?" Rose asks.

"Yes, he's doing fine."

"Oh, well, we're watching a series Mi Rae recommended, it's really good," Rose says. "If you feel like it, you can watch with us?"

I sigh. "You know what? I'm a bit tired, maybe tomorrow?"

She nods. "That's okay, goodnight then."

"Night."

After a warm shower I sit down at the vanity of mine and Rose's bedroom. I run my hands through my hair. Tonight was so chaotic. Seeing him again after so long. . . It was too soon.

Why did the angel I dreamt about have to resemble you Choi Soo-bin? Why does my heart not want to let you go? I sigh, this was supposed to be a peaceful getaway. How is it possible that he is even here at the exact same resort I am? Unless, that person Rose mentioned earlier this evening was one of his friends, one of the TXT members. Well it does not matter now, all I have to do is avoid him at all costs. It's best we don't cross paths again, because then, I honestly do not know if I will be able to keep this tidal wave of hurt and sorrow in again.

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Soobin

"So did you get that fresh air you were in need of so badly?" Beomgyu sarcastically asks as Soobin enters the suite.

"Huh?" Soobin's mind is elsewhere. "Oh, yeah."

"Are you okay man?" he asks.

"Yeah, I am. Just a bit hungry."

Beomgyu nods. "There's some snacks in the pantry. Want to get it and watch some horror movies?"

"Sounds good," Soobin smiles.

As Beomgyu goes to the kitchen, Soobin sits down on the soft couch situated in the lounging area.

Mia. The way her voice sounded earlier. . . was different. He could sense a buried hate beneath her facade of being okay. Could she possibly still be angry at him for that? I understand that it was shocking, but I mean, it could not have been that traumatizing, he thinks as he leans back against the couch. Soobin exhales a long sigh. Things might not be resolved between them after all and strangely enough, that bothers him.

"Why do I feel this way?" he mumbles.

"Feel what way?" Beomgyu enters with both arms holding onto various chips and sweets.

"Nothing." Soobin shakes his head. "Give me those." He gestures to a packet of chips. "I'm starving."

"What do you want to watch?" Beomgyu asks.

"Whatever suits you." Soobin says munching into the chips.