Rogue

Chapter 5: Bonding

Z A N D E R

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A week has passed and My mate hadn't moved at all. all I really did was look at her, staring at her dirty face. not to sound rude or anything. her face had dried up mud all around it and possibly food I accepted the fact she was a rogue for a reason but she was my mate. what could she possibly have done? whatever she did, it's in the past and when she wakes up, ill be the best mate for her.

I realized a lot of things this week and I tried my best to get a mindset of peace when she did wake up. no insults or yelling. I want to show her a side of me I never even saw. I want to show her how life can be with me if she accepts me and most importantly I'll treat her like the queen she is. how I was meant to treat her the first time I saw her.

I haven't tried to talk to her, I didn't make any noise. talking to a person in a coma is weird. I want to tell her stuff when she's awake, looking at me, looking into my eyes as I look into hers.

as the days passed by - slowly might I add - my thoughts became worse. from she's going to wake up and reject me to what if she doesn't even wake up.

the only person that entered the room was the female doctor that checked her a week ago, no one else has been able to make it in the room. the doctor always told me to go and get some sleep or at least eat/drink something but I always refused not making any more comments after the no I would always respond with.

if I ever did close my eyes that would only be for 10 minutes or less. other than that I would watch my mate take small breaths, her blanket-covered chest rising and falling.

I saw her body twitch and I had to rub my eyes to be certain I wasn't just extremely tired. this time her head moved a bit. I quickly mind linked the doctor to hurry over, hoping I wasn't being delusional.

before the doctor could make it, my mate was sitting up and rubbing her eyes. she was awfully calm for someone who woke up after a week.

"good morning mate!! lovely day, my room is filled with sunlight today" she gave him an eye closed smile.

"idiot...do you know how long-" 

"I'm hungry wheres my food?" I got cut off but instead of getting angry I just let out a belly laugh, holding my stomach as I toppled over. "what's so funny!"

I shook my head smiling 

"I'm glad you're awake..." she gave me a smile and giggled sweetly after her stomach announcing how hungry she in fact was.

' hey Carlos, would you mind getting a bowl of fruit, I'm at the hospital' 

' sure thing Alpha!'

"the cook will bring up a bowl of fruit soon" I smiled at her as she beamed, happiness radiating off of her. "So, I know I wasn't the best mate and most likely never be the best mate but I am willing to try for you, I want to ask for forgiveness and it's a hundred percent fine if you reject me, I do deserve it after all," I told her, looking away from her hiding my guilt away.

"why would you ask for forgiveness when you gave me a free room" my mate smirked at me as I looked at her flabbergasted. "I admit, it was lonely there all by myself and last time you only came once, so I was extra lonely that day but other than that I should be thanking you for not setting me back in the wild"

my heart hurt from all the guilt she was making me feel. I deserve it though and I'm ready to die from the guilt if that's what would make her happy.

"no...no it's not like that! it wasn't a free room, that room is a dungeon, the cell's for rogues to kill them...it was made by my father back when he was still alive and well alpha of the pack. he despised rogues and had made me have the same kind of mindset... I'm not trying to make any excuses but I wanted to explain why I had kept you there, I had completely forgotten about the silver coatings, I was just wondering and cursing at the goddess why a rogue became my mate. along the way I guess I started to realize my mistakes and my mother heard me say some stuff..and well seeing my mother crying, something just got me regretting everything.

my father was an abuser, he abused his powers as alpha and my mother as well. he believed women were lower than men and forced that mindset onto me since I was a small child. once I was the right age to take the alpha position my mother had rejected him and that was how he had died. but it doesn't matter. what matters is that I was an asshole to my mate and I would like your forgiveness"

"I'm not stupid, I know why I was in the cell. but as you said it doesn't matter, I was willing to wait for you to open up to me no matter how long, so yes I do forgive you mate" I let out a breath of relief and smiled at her. 

"thank you, I know we didn't start off the best, so we can start over. My name is Zander, zander smith, I am 25 years old and an alpha of this pack that you are currently at" I watched her with a smile as she let out the cutest giggle.

"hmm.. well my name is Nicky, Nicky Lin, I am a 22-year-old, and um.. a rogue I guess" she mumbled the last part awkwardly smiling.

"how long have you been a rogue...?" I asked with a slight frown.

"well 6 years. my pack kinda got attacked and well I have been alone since," she said, looking down and fiddling with her fingers. I frowned, guilt once again putting me down.

"16 years old, alone out in the wild..." I shook my head, how could I be such a jackass and think she did something bad to get kicked out.

the doctor and the cook walked in with a wide grin, most likely eavesdropping before entering.

"I see you're up! just let me run some tests to see if you're healthy enough to get out of here" the doctor smiled at my mate and went to get whatever stuff she needs, while the cook placed the bowl of mixed fruits in front of her.

she thanked him with a smile and took the bowl in hand happily throwing fruits in her mouth. I waited till the doctor walked back in, a happy smile on her face.

"Goodmorning luna! I'm the female doctor of this pack, Bri Logan. I have brought you some clothes after you are done eating, I will give you a simple check-up to see how you are doing and you will be able to leave."

Nicky gave a nod and ate up quickly, clearly wanting to get out of here sooner than later. soon enough the bowl was given to me and she sat up waiting for the doc to check her up. I watched the female check my mate's blood pressure and do other stuff with machinery.

my back was aching from all the time sat on the uncomfortable chair but I waited. I wanted to ask Nicky myself if she would like to sleep in the same room or not. if not i'd have to fix up the room next to mine.

once she was all done and could leave, I gently guided her out and asked her.

"w..would you like to room with me now? " i asked quite awkwardly but it didn't seem like she cared, she beamed up at me cutely and nodded quickly.

"of course i would mate!!"

and that's how the worst week turned into the best one.