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Intimacy

Mature content again, I know some of you don't like it, and I must admit I wasn't comfortable writing M material until not long ago but it is hard to describe realistic intimacy without it... I have tried to write realistic interactions between the characters and none of it is vulgar.

I am an adult and all willing adults out there are welcome to read. For those who really want to keep reading but are bothered with mature content, I traced a line before and after the intimate scenes. Sorry this is as much a warning as a spoiler but I obviously have to do this.

They sat in a lovely restaurant backyard, there were red lamps, candles and soft music, Sanem's eyes were shiny, looking around and trying to notice every small detail. He knew she would write it all and he would kill to read her own recall of this day.

They sat at an angle, needing to be closer than they would be across the table from one another. She rested her legs on his lap under the table and his hand was caressing her calf while waiting for the food.

C: ''how are you feeling about what we did?''

S: ''make love you mean?'' she asked bluntly.

He was surprised she could even talk about it and just kissed her lips as an answer.

S: ''good... very good...'' here was the blush rising on her cheeks.

Can smiled, happy with himself for her reaction and answer.

S: ''you?'' she asked with her unshakable self-doubt.

He kissed her hand, ''I'm so happy Sanem... I've never been so happy.'' He kept her hand on his lips.

S: ''but... you... I mean... it was my first time... I will learn...''

He suddenly understood she was again thinking of her lack of experience compared to him, he interrupted immediately.

C: ''Sanem, it's the first time I made love with anyone and it was amazing... I can't wait to get to do it again...''

Sanem chuckled, embarrassed, this was more than she had asked for and the waiter was getting close. She took her legs off him and rested her head on his shoulder smiling and content.

Their waiter spread their food on the table; as usual, they had ordered more than they needed and shared every dish.

They decided to walk along the small laneways in the old town after dinner. Sanem slipped her arm around his waist and Can held her side.

C: ''I have a ring for you.''

S: ''what?''

C: ''an engagement ring, it's at my studio.''

S: ''but... How?'' she was confused as she knew his proposal wasn't planned.

Can bowed his head down, ''I've known it was you for a bit Sanem and then I saw this ring in an antic shop... I had to have it...''

S: ''if you knew, why did you tell me to leave earlier?'' as much as they hated it, they had to clarify their earlier conversation.

C: ''I... I was wrong... let's forget about it ok? I was wrong.''

S: ''no Can, you wanted us apart and I know you were wrong and you don't want that but I deserve to know where that came from... you scared me Can... a lot.''

C: ''I'm sorry, so sorry.'' He pointed at some stairs and they went up to a viewing terrace. They sat on a bench and Can turned to face her.

C: ''I can't stomach I replicated what he did to you...''