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by athens32

by athens32

I don't know how to feel about this one thing, giving it the atenchen that i was erler had me start to panic. i will only now anit this bit only after making something clear all my freands all the people i am really cose i love in some form. certain ones of thom the ones that could be more romantic i have classified and marked and i have all sorted out in my head. I'm sorry

I should truly keep theas thoughts in my head.

Im sorry for all whom i have disappointed ,im sorry for all whom loved me, im sorry for alll whom cared about this failer.i can try to be better im planing on gerring a job and i will start going to the gym soom , i heed to to stop the pain ( weard tendon/ musle thing).i kinda want to change ,i doint like being athena right now. Faith im sorry i dident pou more effort in to conacting with you. Aidin, Max I'm sorry💜💙. Kam ill leave if you want❤. All can I go and hide now? I made a mastake and i cant find whare it is ( i know its there thow) and if i cant fined it i cant fix it.

Athena shut the fuck up!

I love the photos whare i somehow manage to achsely look cute .im like how?

It seem as if no one i talk to thinks of me as a disappointment, humm funny, because i see myself as a grand one.

I jist made a poem wout wout

Ill add it in, mabey.

I hate my wrighting.

I also dislike mondays

Okay so mondays arnt that bad

Why douse bed and bad look almost identical?

Theres is like three people that i kinda BUT...

One will probly never date me becouse………….just becouse💙

Anouther one i will not speak to about that matter

And the finel one is becouse Florida is to freachin far away💚

I care about people who do not care about themselves. It hurts. It hurts me seeing how I can't do anything to help and I could easily be the problem. I probably am the problem at least sone of the time.

I was just sitting home alone and wrighting somting kinda a tad bit kinky ans playign som music………..the n i hered voicec froum otside,i quicky stop the music and close out the tab that had the righing on it (doint worry adao save is a thing )soooooo for the fun of it hee we gooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>>>>>>>>.............

I fell to the folr ,panting hard,blaking invading my vochin.i feel you take and push me doun the rest of the way with a healled boot, the leash tightining making it harder to breath.looking up into yo eyes, “ ma-ma-ma

And for fun heres a sander sides SMUT that is unfinished ,uneddeted and mostly a good idea in a pore state of exacuashon

I said quietly at my desk staring blank Lee at of book that add that down prior to dinner listening to the noises my boyfriend was making behind me. She said he had a test in mind but not to worry I'm just keep reading so I said there staring at my book listening to the moans and gaps behind me fully I feel my face heating up and it felt like my clothes were a painting around me. Finally I start to give in not liking the feelings I was having, I reach up to my neck slowly listening up my tie as my boyfriend starts whining my name in payment desperation. We made a deal before this experiment I was to read calmly in the chair as my secret boyfriend did Ali could to get me to come over and take control he didn't explain farther than that not what would happen after just that I would come over how he knew that would be my response that's is unknown. Because I agreed show this stupid past I was sitting here physically in pain not wanting to move slowly my brain start so shut down I couldn't control what I was doing . Subconsciously Irish down on button in my pack I'm pulling them done slightly the cooler M making the skin underneath the thing fabric of my boxers start to stand at attention. I'll let my mind wander over to the noises that were coming from behind me what would happen if I just turned her and looked look at the man making such pretty noises

Sorry thas in trash mode basicly remous in playing with himself tochering logan, finely win there clost the there seprit finishis roman wips the dore open and freacks oit at what he sees.i havent desided what happens after that but that was asummery of the plot for that lol im a mess.

Me at 9:06 ( rn its 19:16)

i doint knoe how to feel about this one thing ,giving it the atenchen that i was erler had me atart to panick. i will only now anit this bit only after mackig somtning cleaarall my freands all the people i am rilly cose with ,i love in some form.serten ones of thom the ones that could be more romantic i have clasified and marcked and i have all of thom sortd out in my head. im sorry

I just realised somthing,

I go make dinner now

And i right more if im on the computter.

It is getting light and I wide be putting my phone down

IT JUST SOUNK IN THAT MY BOYFRIEND FINELY KISSED ME TODAY EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE3EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE3EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE3E
(I've been with him for over 8 months and this was the first time we kissed. More acluerit ly he kissed me on the mouth) and it has taken practicly 10HOURS for that to sink in.

I need to announce this in a sertin chat aid in will be disappointed in how THIK I can be.

I apologize for the trash that's in this.

Thoughts froum,
9,sep,2019
~athens32