You've Got To Hide Your Love Away

Down In The City - Just Hoople and Me..Part 5

A/N - A side note from the prior chapter. Penny is dedicated to all those girls who fantasize about bedding their idol. Let's hope all rock gods are as kind and as skilled. ;)

November 18th - en route to Hanley

Roger's POV

"I'm going to catch a nap." Brian had announced before he retired to the bunks at the back of the bus. I avoided watching him. I fumbled with my lighter and got a cigarette lit. I offered one to Kim but she shook her head and spread out in the bus seat across from me to try to sleep. I closed my eyes as I took a long drag. What happened to my life in the last day?

After the sucker punch Brian threw at me by kissing that bitch, I went back to the party. I planned to get completely wasted and try to forget. I had some more to drink and soon found Kim planted back in my lap. I figured, why not? Brian didn't come back to the party. I was confident he took that bitch back to his room to fuck her. Well, two can play at that game! I helped myself to more drink and some kissing with her. She tasted like alcohol and cigarettes. Was I tasting myself? Terry, the roadie, came back around once he felt like I wasn't pissed anymore. Freddie had calmed down too. I guess he was either too drunk to care or was relieved there wasn't an incident with me and Brian. Terry had some more coke so we all took a hit or two and had some great laughs before the party died down.

I know at some point Kim got me back to the room. I know we had sex. We both woke up naked and sticky. I honestly couldn't remember much. That fuckhead Peter banged on the door and got us up. We tried to get some breakfast before the bus left but running into Brian caused an avalanche of emotions for me. I tackled waves of guilt and anger and hurt. I barely touched my food and we had to get my stuff packed so we could leave. I figured I would get Kim a ticket back home and tried to give her some money. She refused and joined me in the shower. She sucked me off and asked if I wanted some company for a few days on the road. I hadn't considered until that moment that Brian might bring that bitch with him on the bus. I hastily agreed and we got packed and rushed downstairs.

When I climbed on the bus and saw Brian sitting alone, I was floored. I am trapped with this girl on a bus! I don't want to be with her. Yeah..she is fun and easy going. I just wanted to go back to the way things were. I finished my cigarette and stared out the window of the bus. The scenery moved by quickly. Maybe I could get rid of her once we got to the next town. I felt shitty for wanting to do this. I just wanted to fix things and it seemed like this had made it worse.

I noticed Kim was asleep. She snored lightly. I got up and walked over to where Freddie and Deacy were sitting.  I just needed some space from her right now. Deacy was slumped over and seemed to be asleep.  Freddie was sitting up but leaned back.  His eyes were closed but I was certain he was awake. He pinched his nose as I sat down and he blinked at me.

"I see the guilty party has risen.." he said to me in a choleric manner.  I knew he was trying to get a jibe at me for last night and for bothering him right now. I didn't care. I was tired of being mad at him. Being angry at Brian was absorbing that entire emotion.

"Good day to you too bitch!" I chuckled at him tiredly. He gave me a wan smile and reached for his can of Coke. We seemed to call a truce.  He looked back to where Peter was sitting. He and John Harris were engrossed in a conversation. He returned his gaze to me.  I could see he wanted to talk.  We just had to keep our voices down.

"So I see you are still with her.  How go things with Brian?  He is strangely calm this morning."  he inquired.   I looked towards the bunk area when he said Brian's name. It was true.  Brian was so calm when he walked back to the bunk.  It actually unnerved me a bit.   I ran my hand through my hair and leaned back against the headrest of my chair.  Hoping it would ground me a bit.