A Defender's Oath (Rafael Barba x reader)

Everyone Has Their Price.

Hey guys I don't know what happened. But somehow this chapter unpublished and I just noticed.  I was having trouble publishing it for some reason. Annyyywwaayy. It's nothing new, but I hope to update soon!

It took only a few minutrelease and their plotes for me to come back to my senses. Above me Liv and Barba were arguing. Amanda had a first aid kit and was cleaning the small gash on my forehead. Fin stood up putting a hand on Liv and Barba's shoulder respectively.

"Guys, she's fine. Look."

They both looked down to see me sitting up with the help of Amanda and Carisi. I apologized for causing a scene.

"Was it too much?" Carisi asked.

"It's more than I expected, but..." my voice halted.

"But?"

"I don't know what else to say. I'm sorry."

"Don't worry," Carisi said landing a playful punch on my arm, "you've got the best detectives in New York looking out for you."

I forced a smile. He was only trying to cheer me up. All I felt was heartache for those caught in the crossfire. My hand pressed against my head. Blood stained my fingertips. I pushed of the ground only to stumble a little. My head was spinning with the information that rattled inside of it.

"So what's the best course of action?" I asked.

"We need to find a safe place for you to stay."

"You could put me on suspension and stay away. That way no one gets hurt."

"I'm not doing that," Amanda sighed.

"Yeah, me neither, kid. You're gonna be stuck with us," Carisi added.

"Hiding on your own won't solve anything. I think we should, for now, keep someone at your place with you." Liv explained. "They committed a crime across the street from your building. They won't be coming back anytime soon. This is only until we figure out where the best place to keep you is at."

"Well, my shift is over so I guess I'll take first watch," Amanda smiled, "you ready to go."

"Yeah," I sighed while holding a piece of gauze over the small cut.

My eyes shifted to Barba for a moment. He looked as if he wanted to say something to console me, but I grabbed my things and headed off before we could talk. If these feelings meant anything between us. I couldn't put him in any more danger than I already had. Amanda placed her hand on my shoulder, snapping me away from these thoughts. Carisi patted my shoulder harder than I'd have liked him to.

"Don't worry kid. We're here for ya."

"Let's get you home for now," Amanda said, "you look like you could use a rest."

"Yeah, sounds good."

Barba started to reach his hand toward me before letting it fall to his side. He didn't want to cause me any more stress than I was already under. After all he was protesting them telling me about the private investigator that was murdered. I had been strong through most of this. But now he was starting to see how I was actually handling it. Everyone was. Shaky hands gather my belongings before heading out with barely a goodbye to the others. We drove off without a word spoken, Amanda and I drove to my place. Amanda looked like she wanted to speak, but we never did. When we arrived in my apartment she spoke up finally.

"You gonna still have that party?" she asked.

"Yeah, I should, huh? That's like a week away."

"Aren't you afraid?"