Why me?

6

Jakes pov
I look her straight in the eyes

E- don't you think I get that. I always try to help you, fuck I even tried to help your mom but you didn't want it.
J- when was I gonna pay you guys back?
E- you didn't have too, people only have one chance to live
J- so it's my fault
E- no, no one said that
J- I would have felt so bad for not paying you back I would have lost my mind.
E- Jake we just talked about this. You didn't have to pay us back
J- why because it wouldn't have put a dent in your bank account

That's when I feel a stinging sensation on the side of my face. I look straight and she's gone. I walk back upstairs and I shut the door. I punch my bedroom door twice. The first punch puts a hole right through it and as I was pulling it out it got stuck on the wood. It made big scratch's the started to bleed immediately. The second one didn't make it through once I pulled back it hurts to straighten my fingers. I slide down my door and I take my shirt off wrapping it around my hand. After a bit I get up and go into the bathroom. I wash my hand with water and wince in pain as it burns. I look around for something to wrap around but there's nothing. I wrap it with my shirt and go to Suzys. She answers

S- jake
J- can you help me
S- of course

Suzy was a nurse but then lost her job like five years ago.

I sit at the kitchen table and she comes back and starts to clean it up. She wraps my hand up and a little bit past my wrist. I tell her what's been happening then I go back to my apartment. I open my bedroom door and look at the hole. I get changed and head to bed.

3 am

Jakes POV
I haven't slept at all I've been staring at the ceiling in pain, mentally and and physical. I get up and go stand on the balcony. I soon sit down and look off into the trees

J- hey mom, I really messed up with Erika. I don't know if you saw but it was really bad. I started a pretty pointless fight for no reason. She really did have every right to be mad and to slap me. By the way it was a pretty good slap I must say *chuckles*. Today  is three years with her that I probably messed up. I have to think of something to make it up to her. Oh shit I could remake the first date that we had

Flashback
Jakes POV
I asked this girl that goes to our school if she wanted to go on a date with me. I really did shoot my shot the first month of grade nine and I already asked someone out. I'm at my apartment and I realize my mom isn't home she's at work for the night. I grab a blanket and a couple pillows and bring it out to the balcony. I grab a bag of popcorn and throw it out there and I hear a knock on the door. I open and Erika stands there. I let her in and we sit on the blanket and that's when I asked her right away.

Jakes POV

J- you know sometimes I have really good ideas but just sometimes.

I get up and go into my room grabbing my comforter and the pillowcases. I grab 25 cents and go to the laundry room. I stuff everything in there and I go back to my room. I grab some other pillows and put them beside the sliding doors. After a bit of time I go to the laundry room and grab the stuff after they dried. I lay the comforter on the ground and I push the chairs back. I put the pillowcases in the pillows and throw a bunch out there. I grab my back pack and check the time five am. I take my board off the back and I leave my apartment skating to Erika's. I think I get there around 5:45am and I open the door and I place my board at the door. I walk trough the house going up to her. I get to her room and open the door. I get in and shut the door. I see her on her back I drop my bag. I put my hand on her face and rub my thumb on her cheek.

J- rik

She rubs her eyes and turns the lamp on

E- Jake just leave
J- I didn't mean what I said I'm sorry
E- no just go
J- it's our anniversary
E- it was
J- it's today is it not

She gets up and stands on the other side of the bed.

E- it was today
J- are you breaking up with me
E- I just think you need to be alone for a bit.
J- but-but you could still be my girlfriend if we take a break we just don't see each other
E- Jake that's not how it works
J- why can't it
E- it's just not
J- but I want to see you and be with you
E- I do too-
J- then what's the problem
E- but you need to be alone for a bit. I haven't seen you in like 7 hours and you already hurt your self

She points to my hand and I hide it behind my back. We stay quiet for a bit

J- three years down the drain
E- it's not gone Jake
J- then when I'm all done being alone we can be together?
E- I don't know
J- then it is going down the drain

I get what she's saying I do need time alone but I want her. I walk over to her and hug her

Whispering
J- I'll see you later, I love you

I kiss her forehead and I pick up my bag and leave. I go downstairs and Charles comes out of the kitchen

C- Jake what are you doing here
J- I um just came to talk to erika
C- I'll see you tomorrow?
J- um probably not me and Erika you know-
C- oh I'm sorry
J- thank you for everything you did for me it really did mean a lot. Just make sure she's okay

He hugs me and I leave on my board.