"Ready?" Luke spoke with a smile in my doorframe, glancing around my room as I stood in the middle of it, saying my silent goodbyes."Yeah" I exhaled with the smallest smile, following him down the hall.
We went to his car, where I buckled up, hearing Nick.
"Aubrey?" He spoke quietly, making me hum lightly.
"We're not coming back?" He questioned slowly.
I could feel Luke looking at me.
I turned to him, avoiding looking at Luke.
"No, buddy" I smiled, reaching my hand back, feeling him grab my own gently.
He went silent as Luke backed up.
"What about our Christmas tree?" He asked.
I laughed lightly, seeing Luke smile.
"We have a Christmas tree at my house, Nick" he chimed in slowly.
"I don't think it will be the same" he mumbled.
Me neither.
I didn't even know what to say.
Luke cleared his throat, as if begging me to say something.
"It'll be okay" my voice was weak as I spoke to him quietly.
"Sometimes it's fun to get new things, to switch things up" I convinced him and myself as I spoke.
He gave me a nod, squeezing my hand lightly, making me squeeze it right back.
We got back to Luke's house, him assisting us in taking our things to our newly designated bedrooms.
I silently put all of my clothes up as I listened to Luke and Nick laughing and playing as they put his stuff up.
I smiled at the sound of Nick's true, loud laugh- which I felt like I hadn't heard in so long.
I grabbed my picture frame, sinking against the wall with it.
I looked to my mom and dad, seeing my mom holding her baby bump, my dad kissing her cheek as he held me close to him.
As I let my head hit the wall, I saw Calum appear in my doorway.
"Anxiety?" I saw panic flash through his face.
"I'm fine" I spoke quietly.
He pushed my door shut, sitting criss cross in front of me
"I got off of work early to hang with you" he smiled proudly.
"Thank you" I smiled lightly.
"What do you have?" He asked, nodding to my picture.
I slowly showed him.
"That's my family" I spoke quietly.
He looked to it, a smile coming across his face.
"I'm assuming you were around- ten or eleven?" He smiled.
"Eleven" I nodded firmly, feeling the lump in my throat.
His eyes met mine.
"What happened?" He asked quietly
I didn't have a problem telling people what happened- it made me emotional, but I had to face it.
"My mom passed away from a blood clot after having Nick through a c-section" I mumbled slowly.
"And then my dad drowned himself in our family bathtub" I finished, clearing my throat lightly.
His face softened.
"But Nick doesn't know and that's not exactly something I want him to know, so help me keep that a secret please" I mumbled towards him.
He nodded lightly,
"How are you doing?" He asked me as I heard Nick's loud laughter, he came running into the room, almost pouncing into my arms.
"Protect me!" He yelled out as Luke ran in after him, a wide smile on his face.
As much as I wanted to love how happy they all made each other
I couldn't help but feel scared
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