Like Clockwork- the songs and poems of a sad, gay, spanglish ghost (Lesbian)

From Russia and Japan to the Moon and Back (Natalya)

I got lost again

Wandering through Aokigahara, Japan

Looking like a bloodbath

As if hit by a train

I stained the grass with my silhouette as I gazed at the stars

Wondering where you went

Your gray eyes staring back at me

With every shimmering blink

Or did I have too much to drink?

I must confess

I've collected other stares in the throes of passion

Bluegrass forests

Or brown like the damp earth

Sunflowers in the summer

Recently even orange

But none like your blueish greys

Oh, Stella mia, please forgive me

For I have failed to go home

Against your wishes

Because you wanted me to carry on

And forget

I've tried and tried

To look for your heart in someone else

A block of ice that melted when we met

And it led to your death

Now I am full of regret

And I cannot forget

You said you hadn't laughed in a million years when we met

So a million years I'll wait

For someone to make me laugh as I did for you

A million years I'll wait

And I'll never bid you adieu

Yah' Teh' Beh' Lublu (Russian)

Or however you spell

I love you