voicemail

would you?

7th january

"it's coming up.

it's coming.

the anniversary.

tomorrow.

it feels like the whole world's waiting for it. everyone knows that it's coming and everyone is waiting with bated breath to see what will happen.

will you come back?

i fucking hope so.

a fucking year, ruby.

a year without you-
do you know how hard that is?

a year without my sister.

a year knowing you'll never come back, but still hoping, praying you somehow would.

this has hurt me, hurt all of us, more than i ever would have thought it could.

if you knew it would hurt us this much, would you have done it?

would you have killed yourself?"