Fall

What do I mean to you?
You keep reminding me that
our friendship was never true.

I've never seen you cry for me
As much as you cry
For someone else
A simple sorry would

Have pulled me back
But you choose to let me go

Every time I see you laugh it hurts,
It hurts knowing that you
Don't even feel bad that
I am leaving you
It hurts to know how much
You actually care about me.

It hurts to know how much
You actually want me to stay
As you're let me go
And got nothing more to say.

I wanted to spend some time with you
I don't ask for it all the time
And you know it.
I just wanted for a special one
But you ruined it.

I despise you now
And you know the reason
I am sorry for expecting too much
From the wrong person.

Truth hit me hard and was cold as ice
But it helped me open my eyes
And it helped me realize
How deep I've drowned in your lies.

I loved you
I cared for you
I was there for you
Built my trust on you
Let my walls down for you
Gave my heart to you
Valued you
Always wished the best for you

But it hurts to know
You'll let me fall
You'll never value me
Even if I gave my all

And since I know how much
You value me
I'll be in my limits.
And let my love for you fall with me
As I hit hard on cold bridge
Of broken trust.

-Nandhika Vardhini