2 Years
There is not a day
that goes by that
I don’t think of you
You are two years old
today
Two years since I held you
that one time
and stared into those
beautiful eyes
and then
Let you go
I wonder what your first word was
Was it
Dada
or
Mama
I hope your new Mama
smiled
and shed a tear
I shed one now
knowing that
it could have been me
You must be walking now
I started walking early
You will probably turn after me
But I will never see you walk
Never feel those tiny fingers
holding tight to mine
as we walk together
Are you a happy girl?
Be happy
Always be happy
I dream of you every night
Dreams of what
Could have been
what
Should have been
but
What will never be
What was not
meant to be
It was my mistake
that you were brought into this
world
A mistake I will never regret
I love you
I always will
It was because I loved you
that I wanted you to have
the Life
I could never give you
I made the mistake
But
I would never let you
suffer for it
What I did
I did for you
So
Hopefully
you will never have to do the
Same
April 22, 2013
YOU ARE READING
I do This for You
PoetryA woman's letters to her baby girl, she gave up for adoption.