16 Years
A young girl
just down the street
killed herself last night
My friend told me
she was a cutter
I didn’t know what that meant
When she explained
I was terrified
She said
it was very common
She was the same age as you are now
16
I have always hoped
and prayed
that someday
we will meet
The adoption agency told me
they could do nothing
The records are sealed
until you are 18
Only then
if you want
you can find out about me
I hope you are safe
I wish I was there
to protect you
I pray
your new parents are
It scares me that something
could happen to you
and I
would never know
I guess
I have no rights
I gave those up
years ago
but
that doesn’t stop me
loving you
If I knew then
what I know now
If I knew
that my life would
work out the way it has
If I knew I could make a
wonderful mother
but…
Well
that’s my cross to bear
I will send this note
to the adoption agency
As I have been doing every year
since I let you go
I only hope that
someday
you will read these
and
you will understand
What I did
I did
for You
May 14, 2013
