I take a deep breath,
And then let it go.
I try to keep my face impassive,
And not let my emotions show.
I feel nauseous on the inside,
And my heart palpitates.
I wish I felt more confident,
As I stand here, waiting for my fate.
They say that life is like a box of chocolates,
You'll never know what kind you'll ever get.
But fate doesn't deal everyone the same hand,
As we place our lives as a bet.
We put everything on the line,
Just to see ourselves fail.
Our hope disappears,
And quickly sets sail.
Leaving us with nothing,
But our own darkness that prevails.
As I try to wade through,
The muddled mess of my own emotions,
I feel something tug at my heart,
And I wonder what could cause such a motion.
I've never felt something like this before,
Was it the revival of a long forgotten feeling,
That I had wanted to ignore?
My mind screams to be rational,
That I possibly can't have such thoughts.
But why do I have these stirrings,
That I should be looking for the things,
That I have never sought.
There must be greater power pulling at these strings,
That makes my brain cry out.
I must be forgetting something,
For me to have such doubt.
It can't possibly be fear,
For I thought I had banished my demons,
Far too long ago.
Have they come back to haunt me,
From deep below?
I feel them clawing at me,
Their wicked teeth sink in,
And I try to hold on,
As they tear through my skin.
I won't succumb to them now,
For I have so much more to live for.
I will continue to struggle in this endless battle,
Until I cannot fight no more.
Where is the sword, the shield,
That you promised to bequeath to me,
At the time I needed you the most?
Was it all a lie, a ruse,
Something that you wished to boast?
I know that this is my own fight,
A battle within myself,
But for once can you support me,
And not abandon me, like yourself?
I plaster on this mask,
And pretend that everything is fine.
But in reality, turmoil,
Rocks the boat that is my mind.
How long can I continue to keep this up,
I want to ask myself.
I have done it for so long,
That I have forgotten who I really am.
Why do I feel so wrong?
I take another breath,
And have to let it go.
I can't keep it in any longer,
For my true feelings have started to show.
I can see the cracks and delineations,
In what was once a perfect mask.
And I wonder,
Why I didn't ask.
My heart fails to beat again,
And I feel my body begin to sink.
I feel so close to the end,
And I know I am at the brink.
I just wish that my futile attempts,
Weren't all in vain.
Maybe then,
I wouldn't be in so much pain.
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Reach Above and Beyond
PoetryA collection of poems reflecting the inner workings of the human mind, challenges, musings, desires, and emotions. Let your imagination soar and be free. Overcome your limits to reach your goals. Reach above and beyond the horizons. You'll be surpri...