You are loved.
You are worth it.
Don't let any tell you,
That you are worthless.
They may yell a slew,
Of profanities, insults,
And call you terrible things.
Just ignore them;
Don't let them strip you of your wings.
But I can't,
I want to scream out.
They say sticks and stones,
Can break my bones,
But they don't realize that,
Words hurt just as much.
But I wish,
It wasn't such.
They cut and slash me,
Deep within my soul.
For I have let them have power,
Over me so long ago.
I regret it.
I hate it.
Everything I did to quell this pain,
Makes me feel so sick.
I pretended that I was still the same,
In order to save face.
I pretended that nothing had happened,
So that my friends would give me space.
But in reality,
I wanted them to come.
I wanted them to ask me,
And beg for me to tell them why.
Maybe then,
I might finally break down and cry.
Nothing seemed to work,
To provide me some sense of relief.
I tried making my scars visible,
In hopes that the ones within,
Would stop burning.
That did nothing,
But make me regret my actions more.
Why have I let myself become this thing,
This empty shell that I abhor.
I hate myself,
For giving up so soon.
I should have asked for help,
Under that pale blue moon.
Instead of keeping my feelings hidden,
I should have said them out loud.
I'm not proud,
Of what I've done.
I'm not proud,
Because I decided to get up and run,
Away from my fears.
I should have faced them,
When they first appeared.
But here I am,
Still yet another coward.
I want to slam,
My head against the wall.
Maybe then I'll finally realize,
When I started to fall.
I let those words control me,
Mold me into what I hated.
Why did I have to succumb to my insecurities?
Why do I feel so frustrated?
This situation is spiraling out of control,
And out of my reach.
I try to resist that urge,
And I try to hide that bottle of bleach.
Temptation beckons me to not be rational,
That I have everything I ever wanted within reach.
Shut up.
Shut up,
I don't want to listen to that little devil on my shoulder anymore.
Because of it,
I let them pluck every single feather,
Strip me into a flightless bird.
Why didn't I fight back?
Is it because I believe so much in that word?
I can't be worthless.
I can't be not worth a dime.
I need to give myself,
Some more time.
I can't make rash decisions,
When I'm not in the right state of mind.
I need to find,
Myself again.
Maybe then,
I'll finally understand,
What I really want.
I won't listen anymore to their taunts.
I won't let them goad me,
Into hurting myself anymore.
I'll be who I was before.
I don't care what they think, do, or say.
I'll make them listen to me,
At the end of the day.
I won't let these desperate words,
Be lost again.
I won't let them be unsaid,
Ever again.
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Reach Above and Beyond
PoetryA collection of poems reflecting the inner workings of the human mind, challenges, musings, desires, and emotions. Let your imagination soar and be free. Overcome your limits to reach your goals. Reach above and beyond the horizons. You'll be surpri...