haphephobia

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I don't wanna care
Cause i don't wanna hurt again
But you're just a kid
You just need someone to look after you
Need someone with who you can share.

I want to look after you
Shower you in love and affection

But my heart's ice cold
Don't come to me for help
Stop following my freaking footsteps.

I can't touch you
Cause they frighten me
Scare me out of my wits
And you're in need of a long ass hug.

So when i fought through my fear
And finally let you hug me
Pushed away my disgust
Put you before me
Tell me
Why did you then take advantage of me?

Ran into someone else's arms
Betrayed me
And now you're running back?

I'm trying to forgive
Justify your actions
See from your point of view.

Stuck in this dilemma
Where i want to help
Help you recover
Free you from your chains
Mend you back together.

But i also wanna
Show you my middle finger
Revenge my betrayal
Leaving you bleeding on the floor
Make all your sins see through
And say
Fuck you

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The poems all over the place, but i still kinda like it.

Also i just poked my eye with my id card like wth it BURns¡¡¡

See ya
;)

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