Lâcher Prise

deux

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BEA

Saturday, 4:50 PM

I'm at UPTC with Kat and Bacon, I've been very good at being their third wheel these days. Malapit lang kasi condo ni Kat sa bahay kaya siya palagi nahihila ko whenever I want to hang out, and of course, more often than not, kasama si Bacon which is fine with me because we get along just fine. We're here sa Costa Coffee right now talking about some random stuff.

I also informed Jules and Dani that we're here. Susunod daw sila with Ponggay after their class. I really miss them kaya gusto ko rin silang makita. I may not be that showy sa kanila, lagi ko sila binubully but I really love these girls, they're like little sisters to me. After a few minutes, dumating sila. Magkasamang dumating si Dani and Jules, and so I asked them where Ponggay is.

"I thought kasama niyo si Pongs." I asked, confused.

"Oo andito na rin siya dumaan lang sila sa Regatta." Dani said.

"Sila? Who's she with?"

"Ate Jho, sumama na rin siya coz she's buy something." Jules replied.

"Oh. Okay." Is all that I said. At 'yun lang talaga ang nasabi ko kasi nagulat ako talaga. Hindi ko na kasi nakakasama si Jho sa mga ganitong random hang out, pero since part na ulit siya ng team, at palagi naman kaming lumalabas nila Dani and Jules, siguro mas madalas ko na siyang makakasama ulit. Nagkaroon na kasi ng gap after all that had happened, I really don't know what exactly the reason is, pero umabot nalang kami sa sitwasyon na halos hindi na talaga nag-uusap. We built a super thick and super high wall between us. Medyo worried ako ngayon kung paano ako sa kanya later because it's really awkward kapag nandiyan siya. Lord, please help me. 😭 My trail of thoughts got distracted when Kat broke the silence.

"So are we just gonna wait for them here or..?" Kitty Kat asked.

"Hintayin nalang daw natin sila dito. Magkakape rin ako e." Dani said.

Nag-oorder sila Jules and Dani sa counter when Pongs and Jho arrived. I greeted them and exchanged besos with them.

"Hi guys! What's good?" I said with super high energy. Can I be more awkward than this? Ugh.

"Hi po. Sana okay lang na sumama ako." Jho said, with her head faced down. Nahihiya. L

"Don't be like that, Jho. Stop being cute." I said. OMG. Yes, I'm thinking out loud for God's sake!

Buti nalang dumating na si Dani at Jules with their coffee kaya na-cut na agad ang usapan. Thank God. Si Ponggay, nakatingin sa akin na parang nang-aasar. Pongs knew me very well, alam niya kung anong pinagdadaanan ko. Nagulat din siguro siya sa mga nasabi ko. But how can I control myself from admiring Jho's cuteness? Siguro sa tagal ng pag-suppress ko ng feelings ko, hindi ko na talaga siya nacontrol.

We chatted for nearly an hour, I asked them about how their training is going. Their acads.. Hindi masyado nagsasalita si Jho, but I always look at her. God knows how much I miss this person. She's getting more beautiful as time goes by. I wish I could tell her all my thoughts but I know I can't. I will just admire her from afar.

"Hey by the way, our Japan trip will be next month na raw. Tuloy na raw talaga as per Coach O!" Jules said happily.

"Aw, inggit ako." I said.

"Sus. As if naman na hindi ka pwedeng sumama. Sama ka na ate Bei!" Dani told me while shaking my shoulder.

"Can't promise. Daming engagements, and I also have my own team no. May training din kami." I said.