Forever June

ii. color wheel

red. the blood that trickled down when you dragged the blade
the only thing you could control

orange. the minuscule pills you bought from the pharmacy
swallowing them down to leave the pain for just a minute

yellow. the dots swimming around in your vision 
after inhaling drugs that gave you false felicity

green. the stain on your dress when you passed out on the doorstep 
after downing ten drinks too many to drown your sorrows

blue. your ethereal face when addictions spiraled 
collapsed on the floor with a halo of spilled liquid around your head

purple. the blurred sirens wailing in the air 
an impossible race against time to drag you away from Death's grasp

white. the sterile sheets drawn over your pale body 
a rising and falling line that tells the story of your life

black. the hurricane whirling through my shattered mind 
as you glide through the gilded gates of the unknown

did you know?
every time you spin the color wheel,
a little bit of color is stolen from you
until i have to spin it too.

you painted me with color,
but the hues swirled together.

in the end
we just suffocated in black
and fading shades of gray.