Strange Feelings (oumasai)

chapter 7⚠️TW: self harm⚠️

My heart was racing. It felt like my heart had just ran a marathon. Why? Because kokichi was laying on me, snuggled up to my chest, half asleep.

"I'm sleepy"
"T-then g-go to sleep"
"So you dont mind If I sleep on you?"
Ouma spoke in his childish voice
"N-no... unless y-you feel uncomfortable I dont mind"

Kokichi let out a big yawn and lay his head on my chest again.
"Okay..." he closed his eyes, and within minutes he was snoozing away.

Strange, usually he struggles to sleep. According to school.

I'm still trying to figure out what happened to kokichi, he got hurt... badly. I hope it wasn't anyone I know. I place my hand on his head and play with his hair. Cute...

Maybe I do like him, but who knows?

I stare at him for a few minutes. His hair was all messy, and he was smiling in his sleep "s-shuichi" ouma mumbled. Was he awake? Or another dream? "Yeah kokichi?"
.......
There was no reply
Strange.... I wonder what he was dreaming about.
I hold his hand and look at him once more, I noticed his clothes where all bloody, I'll give him some of mine when he wakes up.
Kokichi moved in his sleep, as he did his sleeve lifted up exposing his wrists.

What...
The....
FUCK
All over oumas wrists... where cuts..... most likely by himself.
I pull his sleeve back down.
Something is going on... he needs help. I can't just tell him I saw his cuts, I'll just try and make him happy...

I rest my head on kokichi's head who was still struggled up to me. His head now on my shoulder.

Before i new it,I fell in a deep sleep.

Kokichi's pov:

My eyes fluttered open. Hm? Oh... right. I'm at saihara's. Wait... where is shuichi?
"Shuichi?"
No reply. Didn't I fall asleep on him? Where is he...

I get up from his bed and rub my eyes, my head still throbbing from yesterday.

I turn around and see the door slowly creep open
"Oh! I didn't realize you where awake. Sorry, I just had to say bye to my uncle he is going to work"

I walk over to him rubbing my eyes.
"I'm still sleepy!!!!" I complained
"c'mon it's already noon! oh um... h-here... p-put these on....." saihara handed me his clothes. A hoodie and shorts.

"Aww thanks shuichi!"
"N-no problem..."

Shuichi closed the door behind him. Then OUMA gets changed but I'm not writing that yall are perverts

"Saihara you can come in now! The clothes are too bigggggg!!!" I moaned, trying to act confident
"Sorry kokichi.. it's not my fault you're short!" OH NO HE DIDN'T
"NO NO I'M NOT SHORT I'M AVERAGE HIGHT" we both laughed.
"Y-you're 5'1!!!" Saihara laughed histericly.

~time skippppp AAA~

Shuichi pov:
(Sorry another saihara pov I just live him-)

Me and kokichi where sat on my bed talking. Well, kokichi was talking. My thoughts where more focused on what I saw last night.... lose cuts.... deep cuts... there is no way someone else would slit his wrist, it had to be him. Even worst they where fresh cuts..... so.... it's not something that happened in the past or anything

"So yeah basicly tamaki likes haruhi, everyone does. but haruhi doesn't l- saihara are you even listening?"

"Oh sorry kokichi... I was thinking"
"But you ALWAYS say that! Is it about meeee?"
"Yeah, actually" I cover my mouth when I realised what I just said.
Ouma gasped.
"Really? What about me exactly?"
"I would tell you, but I want you to tell me about it first, I don't think you wanna talk about it"
"Whatever you say saihara-chan!" Kokichi spoke sarcastically

~time skip~
Oumas pov:

A few hours pasted by. What had shuichi found out? I tried to think. Was it my sexuality? No... there's no evidence of that. Wait... I thought, looking down at my wrists

Shit

"Hey shu?"
"Yeah what's up?"
"What did you find out?"
There was a moment of silence.
"I told you I wanted you to tell me first , you might not trust me"

I mean, he isn't wrong. I can't trust anyone. But in a way it kinda hurt.

Ik this chapter is cringey but im scared pll i know will find my wattpad so i might delete this fic skksksks