Strange Feelings (oumasai)

chapter 11:⚠️TW! SELF HARM,MENTIONS OF SUICIDE,DEPRESSION⚠️

Kokichi's pov:

Great. I swear something's going on with miu and shuichi. Do they like eachother? They proberly do.... i would give anything to be with shuichi. But i can't... im not good enough. Who would even want to be with a rat like me?

I paused

Ha, who wouldnt want to be with a rat like me? You only live once, i guess.

For now ill just appreciate the friendship i have with him.

*bell rings*

Well... i guess ill get to class.

{Smol time skip owo}

"Okay, that's all for today. Make sure you study for the test next week, class dismissed"

I grabbed my bag and opened the door. I don't know where shuichi is, he's proberly with miu... ill meet him at our dorm i guess.

I opened the dorm room and shuichi wasnt there. Whatever... Maybe he does like miu. I felt a tear fall from my eye.  He... will... never... love... you ....

I walk to the bathroom and  took a box cutter out from my pocket.

Just... a few cuts...

Slice

Slice

Pink blood poured out from my wrists and tears rolled of my cheeks.

"Kokichi..."

I flinched and turn around.

Shit. I didn't lock the door
"S-shuichi its not what it looks like i-"
Before I could say anything shuichi hugged me tight

"It's okay... i understand know. Im here"

I couldn't hold it in. I start crying on shuichis shoulder

"Shh~ its okay"

We pulled away from they hug
"T-thank you"

"Its fine,ill always be here for you. Come on ill get a bandage for your wrist"

He stood up and let a hand out for me. Grabbing hand, he lead me to the bed and pulled out a bandage

"Saihara-chan?"
"Yeah whats up?"
"The thing you knew... was it the scars?"
He nodded.
"I didn't know if you wanted to tell me, so i waited for you to reach out to me"

Holy shit i love him. He's so respectful... its crazy to think hed want to be near a person like me.

Shuichi finished wrapping my arm.

"If any one asks,just say you fell over and cut your arm"

"O-okay"

"So... why did you do it?"
"H-huh?"
"You don't have to answer. I just want to comfort you"
"I..."

Shit. Some excuse. Think think.

"WHAT ARE YOU TOO LOVE BIRDS DOING?"
It was miu. Thank atua.

"Miu nows not the time"
"Oo~ wutcha doin?"
I felt my face heat up.
"AWW OUMA YOU'RE-"
"LEAVE HIM ALONE"
Shuichi rased his voice
Woah... that has never happened before
"Woah... i was only joking"
"s-sorry I didnt mean to snap"
"Its okay ill leave you to alone~" miu giggled and closed the door.

"Hehe~ why'd you snap shuichi?"
"I... dont know. I didn't even mean to the words just escaped from my mouth i guess"

I tried to smile, so i wouldn't worry him.
"Its okay. You don't have to fake smile. I want you to smile because you want to, not because you have to"
"Really?"
"Mhm"

I smiled at the thought, a real smile.

"Thank you shuichi,im so lucky to have you!"

I saw shuichi blush, which made me giggle.
"Awww you're blushing!"
"S-shut up dork"
"Ouchie shumia that hurts me feelings" i pouted
"W-what?im sorr-"
"Relax, i was joking! Dork isn't even an insult"
"Well In that case i take it back!"

Shuichi pov:

Nows a good time, to ask him on a date.. fuck it. Do it. Just... SAY IT!
"Ouma do you wanna go.. um... out sometime?"
"What?"
"T-to like the movies or something? Or not you don't have to say yes"
"Hehe~ id love to"

He said yes... he actually said yes....
"Y-you do realise im asking you um.. on a date?"
"Yup! Thats why i said yes silly~"

This, is hands down the best day of my life

WOW ANOTHER SHORT CHAPTER SHOCKKK sorry its 2am lmao and also what an angsty chapter uwu ALSO YES THEY ARE GOING ON A DATE I LOVE THEM HEHEHEHE

Goodnight children,don't lie i know its late. 😌👌