[Minjoo]
I went to a restaurant with Chaewon, Hyewon and Eunbi because Hyewon is hungry
Ok she's always hungry-
Wait.. have I ever been in a restaurant with Chaewon?? I don't think so because we normally go to the ice cream shop always. She loves MintCho very much! That's cute tho
But I hate mintcho so much-
"Minjoo... did you talk to her?" Eunbi asked
"Uhm yes she said the same thing what you said" I answered
"Wait DO YOU MEAN-"
"NO NO NOT THAT!! The thing with Kyubin"
She was close to expose us..
"Ohhh I got it-" she said
"Eunbi it's your chance now to be friends with Chaewon" I said
"Oh right! Hey- wait?" She said and we looked to Chaewon
Who is taking to Hyewon
HYEWON STOLE EUNBIS CHANCE NOOOOO
[Chaewon]
"What's your favourite food?" Hyewon asked
"Uhm Mint Chocolate flavoured ice cream" I said
Hyewon is lovely but only talks about food- it's kinda funny I think
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After 1 hour..
We went home after we had finished eating in the restaurant
Minjoo and I are on our way to home but she suddenly stopped to walk and I did it too
"Chaewon... can you answer my question now.." Minjoo said
"Which question?"
"Are you crushing on me??" She asked
She doesn't know how much I hate this question. I don't wanna answer. I don't wanna change anything. Why is she asking it? What is her goal?! I don't get her..
I can't confess my feelings so easily..
But... I trust her...
Would she hate me if I confess my feelings to her?
I don't know it.
I've never been in a situation like this.
What if she decides to move out? I don't want that...
I still want the Minjoo who sleeps beside me. I still want the Minjoo who hugs me when I feel bad. I don't want to lose my only one friend I have. I don't want other friends.. Minjoo is enough..
"Didn't I say that you have to find it out?" I said
"Chaewon... you don't want to answer. Does that mean... you're falling for me?" She asked
"What if I say this because I don't love you and only want to play with your feelings?" I said
"I don't believe that because that's not a Chaewon thing." She said
"Ok... you really want my answer?" I asked
"Yes!! It's important to me.. and if yes, it's ok!" She said
"I don't think it's ok because you want me only as a sister. You want to see me as a sister... or you only do it for your father. To be honest, you sometimes seem like you're falling for me too but I know that you don't. I guess I seem like this too you think but what if I also don't? You can't know it. You can't look into my thoughts. And Minjoo.. please don't play with me.." I said and started to walk
[Minjoo]
She confuses me so damn much.. She didn't say the answer again I'm so confused!
Am I really playing with her?
I don't want this.. I have to be careful..
I followed her after she had walked
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We're in our room now and it feels like a tense situation
I'm questioning if she hates Eunbi. She never gives her a chance to talk
"Chaewon... Don't you like Eunbi??" I asked
"Why do you ask that?" She said
"Because you never give her a chance.. you even gave Hyewon a chance but Eunbi never gets a chance.. I think you hate her" I said
"I don't hate her.. but I don't like it that she acts like the boss" she said
"She actually doesn't she's only careful!" I said
"Ok. And by the way I only had a talk with Hyewon because she just spoke to me and talked about food. Should I say shut up or what?? Not so nice." She said
"Was it funny?" I asked
"Kinda" she said
"Having a talk with Eunbi makes also lot of fun!" I said
"I don't care about that go to your Eunbi and be happy with her!" She said annoyed
"Chaewon?? Are you jealous?" I asked
"I'm not. There's no reason." She said
"Maybe you fall for me that's the reason?" I said
"Minjoo..."
"Yes?"
She came closer to me..
And she pushed me against the wall..
Her lips came closer to mine..
What is happening now...
She almost kissed me... but she stopped to push me...
"Is that your goal? Are you using me? Don't use me for your gay fantasies. I already said don't play with me.. you don't know how much it hurts me..."
Did I do something wrong..
"You don't know it how it is to love someone because everyone loves you I'm sick of it you don't know how to handle with feelings of others! Please leave me alone. I'm gonna sleep in the living room." She had said and went to the living room..
I'm tearing up now... I didn't want to make her mad..
I went to the living room too
"Chaewon!"
"Please leave me alone!!" She said
I've ignored what she said and just hugged her
"I fucking said don't play with me! Let me go!"
"I won't.. Chaewon I didn't want to make you mad.. please come back to our room.. i can't sleep lonely. I need you beside me to sleep peacefully... please I'm so sorry for everything what I did to you.. please don't be mad... I want that you feel good.. because I.. "
Because I love you.. I love her so much.
"I can't say it yet.. but please come back to our room I am so sorry.." I said
She hugged me back.. She said nothing but we went back to our room..
We had changed our clothes and now we're laying in the bed.
"Good night Kimchae jjigae!" I've closed my eyes and expected that she says I should stop to call her like this But she said nothing..
After 5 minutes.. She has kissed my forehead and wished me good night then..
To be continued
