Tied To The Savage Tycoon

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Eighteen T-T

Gumising ako at nakita kong hawak-hawak ni Gamaliel ang kamay ko. "Gamaliel..."

"Does any part of your body hurt?" Tinanong niya ako, umiling ako. "Why am I still in the hospital?"

Ayokong manatili sa ospital. Natatakot ako, ayokong paratangan at husgahan ako ng mga tao dito. Ayokong marinig na ako ang nagpatay sa anak ni Anikka at ni Tobias.

"Gamaliel, take me out of here. Please," Nangingilid ang mga luha ko. Gusto kong makaalis dito. "Ayokong makita si Tobias, ayokong makita silang lahat."

Mahigpit akong niyakap ni Gamaliel. "Huminahon ka na Cindy, please." Mas hinigpitan pa niya, "Please get me out of here."

The scene where Anikka shot herself keeps replaying in my mind. "H-Hindi ko binaril si Anikka, hindi ko pinatay ang anak nila. Hindi ko 'yun ginawa."

I kept on crying and crying. Gusto kong kumawala sa yakap ni Gamaliel at umalis sa ospital at lumayo. Gusto ko nang mamatay!

"I didn' t kill the baby. Gamaliel, hindi ko pinatay ang bata. I didn't kill in anybody." I kept repeating the same words, hoping Gamaliel would also believe in me that I did nothing wrong.

"Stop thinking about Anikka's baby. Think about the child in your womb," I froze, "T-The child in my womb?"

Pumasok ang isang doktor sa kwarto, I have a bad feeling about this. "Doc, nagdadalang tao po ba ako?"

Hindi umimik ang doktor. "Well you we're, but after the stress, you lost the baby."

Parang gumuho ang mundo ko. Parang lahat ng kamalasan sa mundo ay nagtipon para pabigatin ang balikat ko. Sa sandaling iyon, gusto nalang magdilig ng hukay at ibaon ang sarili ng buhay.

I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry for being irresponsible. I should have took the early signs seriously. Because of my negligence, I killed you. I'm so sorry. I should have been a better mom.

You deserved to live, not to die.

Hindi ko na maintindihan ang sarili. Parang nababaliw na ako sa kakaiyak, "Gamaliel, I killed my baby." I simply concluded.

Hinawakan ni Gamaliel ang dalawang kamay ko. "Hindi mo pinatay ang anak mo, Cindy. Please, calm down." Pinalabas ko ang lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman.

Dad is still in coma.

Avys and Tita Devina still avoids me.

I'm being accused of shooting Anikka.

I'm accused of killing her baby.

Tobias blames me for the death of their child and might leave me.

I killed my own child.

He wiped my tears from my cheeks.
"Hindi ko na alam anong gagawin ko, Gam. Gusto nalang mamatay,"

"Shh, don't say that. Cindy, malakas ka. You're strong. You're the strongest woman I've ever known." He was trying to comfort me but it didn't work.

I still felt the heavy weight of emotions in my shoulders.

I felt empty all of a sudden. It felt like I lost something so dear and precious to me.

I lost my mom at a young age, I don't have my dad in this moment, and I lost a baby.

"Mr. Enriques, may I speak to you outside." Lumabas si Gamaliel kasama ang doktor at nag-usap sa labas.

I stared blankly at the white walls of the hospital. I feel like my soul walked out of my body. I felt like crushing inside, I don't want to continue living anymore.

Right at this moment, I needed Tobias the most.

I want him to comfort me and make me feel like everything 's okay.

I need him to tell me its not all my fault. I want to tell him my pain.

But where is he?

Where was he when I needed him the most?