Life Unscripted

Choices Determine Your Future

After my fourth child was born it began to become difficult for me to juggle the kids, school and home life. After giving birth two days later I was back at school taking finals. Well I failed one class and it really had me feeling defeated. I started the next quarter which would have been my second to the last quarter to finish my BA degree but I started to lose focus. I was so exhausted juggling four kids as now my oldest started half day kindergarten and I was trying to do homework in the day time while feeding a new born and taking care of two toddlers. As you can imagine it was difficult. After being so exhausted from school each night, I was failing on my motherly duties because of me being so tired! I then made the difficult decision to quit school and just get a job to help support my family.

The great thing was now I was invited by some great friends to a phenomenal non denominational, multi cultural church to one of their morning services. After going to a smaller church for about four years, I was ready for a change. I totally loved it there because now the kids had their own classes and I could finally focus on the Worship and also had no distractions when the sermon was being taught. It was my time to get my spiritual nourishment. To replenish from
a long hard week.

I decided to join the church as a member. I was able to take discipleship classes which really opened my eyes to how I viewed things. I remember going to the first class where they introduced the vision of the church and all that it stood for. I took a class that taught me about how to renew my mind to the things of God and how to use the Bible scriptures and apply it to my daily life. I even took a parenting class and I was finally able to work on being a better me!It felt good. I made some really great friends at the church. Some were seasoned and more spiritually mature that I was. Some were at my level of spiritual maturity so I had a great balance. I just remembered how learning to give of my time in volunteering and serving in my local church not only helped build me up, it helped build others as well. I didn't know then that I was being trained up for leadership.

I was encouraged by others and tried to find my purpose and calling on this earth. I then started serving wherever I was needed.

My thoughts took me back when I was a little girl of how I was always the child that was picked by the Reverend or leadership of our children's church to lead even at a young age. I also thought of when I came to know the Lord. I can remember when I was going through that rough time in life after what my adopted mothers husband did to me.
Ironically at that time my adopted mother was helping a Pastor and his wife to get their immigration papers all squared away. This lady the pastors wife was so beautiful inside and out! She was told by my adopted mother that I needed prayers. The sweet lady led me into her husbands bedroom. He was paralyzed after having a stroke. He was unable to speak or move. He only could open his eyes and nod his head. The lady led me beside his bed and asked me did I know Jesus? She asked had I ever accepted Christ as my personal Lord and Savior? I thought well I have went to church my whole life of course I know Jesus. I heard Gods voice all the time when I was little. But the real question was did I have a relationship with God. And then I said well I've never accepted Him as my Lord and Savior in my heart. So this sweet lady told me to repeat after her this simple prayer, Lord Jesus thank you for saving me. Please forgive me of my sins. I ask you to come into my heart and I allow you to be Lord and Savior over my life. Please be the ruler of my heart and help to guide me every day of my life. In Jesus name I pray, Amen! After praying that simple prayer I felt very different. I felt as if at that age of 14 I was being molded into a new person. I then went to my church and asked to be baptized in water. It changed my life.

At this season in my life it was as if now that I was a mother of four, I really needed to be an example for them.  The choice to open my mind and not be conformed to all that my circumstances of life had led me too was huge. I know in Life God always has a plan. He knows what's best. It's really up to us to choose the right path. I'm thankful that I had this great opportunity to learn about my worth and how God viewed me.

I began to work for the church that I attended. It was such a great experience to learn all the different things that make a huge church run the way it does. I believe that I learned so many valuable lessons in the few years I was there as an employee. I made great friends who were my coworkers. This was a great job. However I knew that the money wasn't enough to raise my four kids. I got a new job working for the cable company. My salary was pretty good and I was able to make ends meet because my husband's job kept laying him off so I had to get a more steady income and a job that would allow me time with my children on the weekends. I worked for this Cable company for about two years when something that I never would have imagined turned my whole world upside down. Stay tuned .....