Y/n
I've been alone on my house well technically not MY house my aunt let mattia and i kept the house before she die. Mattia and I broke up a few years ago, I didn't saw him again
Flashback
Me and mattia have been together for 4 years. Yes 4 years we got together when we're freshmen now im college. We live in a same roof with my aunt mattia's been doing tiktok stuff while me I worked and go to school.
But then something happened, mattia's not around he was on other country for playlist shits i was going to see him suddenly my aunt had heart attack before i left. I miss the flight and go to hospital. My aunt was weak
"Y/n..." i look at her i grab her hand "I can't take it any longer... promise me that you and mattia are going to take care of my house. I already named it after the both of you" she said i was crying
"No auntie, please don't" i said i hear the door open it's mattia
"Auntie..." he was beside me
"Mattia... promise me to take care of my y/n okay" she touch mattia's face he just nod
That night we lost her. We have the whole house for ourselves there's a lot of memories here. I just stare at my aunts paint.
"She was in the better place now" he hug me i rest my head on his shoulder
Months later, mattia was dropping on tiktok because of a big issue about him. He quit tiktok so i need to work harder to so we can have some money to pay for the electricity and water. I was on college i study medical because i want to be a doctor.
Weeks had been pass, mattia is always on alejandro or kairi's house but most of the time he was at the bar. One time i have a last test before I passed to be a doctor. Someone called me that mattia is on the bar I don't have a choice but to go there.
"Mattia lets go... i have a test I can't miss this" i said i was tearing up because this is a big thing for me
I was trying to carry him while holding my books in my hand. I was crying mess, we fall into the ground and i grab my books again and him
"Come one mattia" im crying mess
"Im sorry y/n" he mumble
"It's okay it's okay... come on walk" i said i hear my phone rang
"Hello"
"Y/n where the fuck are you! The test is about to start in 30 minutes!" My best friend
"I-i know im going ther-" i was cut
"Y/n.... im sorry.." mattia said
"Left him! This is one step for you being a doctor! Don't miss it!" He yell at me to the phone
I cry and try to carry mattia again until we fell on the floor again. The last thing i knew mattia throw up onto my shirt. I still carry him until to the bus stop my phone ring
"I TOLD YOU TO LEFT HIM! THE TEST IS ABOUT TO START IN 10 MINS!" He said and hung up. I sat mattia on the bench.
"Im sorry baby... just this time, i need to go" im crying at him i peck his head
I stop a taxi i hop in i look at the window. Mattia was standing up but he fell on the ground. That's when i realize i cant left him. I stop the driver then run back to him
That day I lost my chance to be a doctor. Im really tired of mattia being like this I want to rest.
My birthday came, we don't have enough money. I gather the half cake that my friends give to me and light the candle. I was very tired of this relationship
"Happy birthday y/n" Mattia said quietly he hug me but I stand up and went to wash the dishes "you have a lot of cake today" he said
I was ignoring him i was mad, tired and drained. I push myself to study again. I was washing the dishes harshly i feel him hug behind me but i push his arms away
"Y/n what's wrong?" He ask i ignore him "look i have a gift for you" i look at his hand it was a necklace but i walk passed him "can you just accept it?" He said "tell me what's wrong!" He said "if i did something tell me! If you want to hurt here" he grab my hand and start to slap himself but i pull my hand away
"You want to know what's wrong?" I ask him i grab the box of necklace in his hand and throw it "FUCK MATTIA ARE YOU BLIND! CANT YOU SEE IM FUCKING TIRED! IM TIRED WORKING IM TIRED STUDYING AND IM TIRED OF CLEANING ALL YOUR MESS!" I yell at him "I EVEN LOST MY CHANCE TO GET MY DREAMS! I DONT EVEN HAVE A CHANCE TO BOUGHT SOMETHING FOR MYSELF BECAUSE I ALWAYS PAYED THE THINGS YOU BROKE ON THE BAR! IM TIRED OF THIS BULLSHIT RELATIONSHIP!" i said and sit on the chair he was still standing infron of me
"Is that what you feel?" He ask i cry in my hands and nodded "what do you want me to do?" He ask
"Just leave.." i said between my sobs when I looked up he disappeared I realized what i said i run outside it was raining
"M-mattia? Mattia!" I cry harder he left me...
End of flash back
Just remembering that making me sigh. Kairi and alejandro didn't even know where he went. I shake my head and get ready for work. Im working on office now and still studying...
Part 2....
