Mattia
I walk inside the house still didn't change all the mess before i left is still here. I sat on the couch y/n and i used to hangout.
"It's good to me back..." i said
I just comeback to italy with my parents. Then i saw the fake tulips i give to y/n, how is she doing now? After that happened... i was walking around the house until i hear the bedroom door open
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?" i saw y/n
"What are you doing here?" I ask back
"Im living here and this is my house" she said
"Technically not because auntie named it to the both of us." I said
"Uhmm actually no. This is mine now, you left remember?" She said with sass "now leave!" I didn't move a muscle "leave!!" She push me to the door and close it.
Im gonna be honest she didn't change she looks prettier than ever
Y/n
I got to work then sat on my chair i was really stress. I put my hand on my forehead
"Ouu your not on good mood today. Does your period come late again?" Emily said I rolled my eyes
"No... there's just a pest in my house" i said
"Okay that's not good at all! Even for the house!" She said while typing "you need to remove that pest. But what kind of pest is it? A rat? Cockroaches?" She added
"The pest has a name" i said "and he's coming back"
"Ouu i smell the 4 years ex boyfriend?" She said she knew the story "but make sure to sold the house okay?" She said
"Ofcourse duh it's for my brother" i said
I got home from work. I see the house is dark i was happy because I thought he left but then when I tried to open the door it didn't open. He changed my key
"Mattia open the fucking door!" I bang on the door he peeked at the window
"I will if you let me stay here and we can talk things out" he said I inhale to calm myself
"Okay now open.the.door." I said he opened it, it was clean
"I cleaned the house, there's a lot of things around here on the living room" he said i walk to the dinning room my important things are gone i was about to yell at him "i put it in your room" he said
"Good" i said "but your not staying here longer" i said i was about to close the door of the bedroom he push it
"What do you mean?" He ask
"Im going to sold this house." I said
"Why? Do you think auntie will good to hear that?" He said why does he care so much
"You can't change my mind. It's settled im going to sold this house for good. Now goodnight" i close the door i feel my legs are shaking just staring at him.
Weeks past someone buy the house and mattia and i, we talk. A lot until i felt like all the my feelings for him is coming back. No y/n don't fall for him again, don't do the same mistake you did a couple of years.
I got home from work when i got in he was there standing smiling at me with a bouquet of tulips. My heart beats fast i only hear the beat of my heart. He played our song...
"Hey..." he give me the flowers
"What is this?" I ask him
"I love you y/n..." he said
When i heard those words i run outside it was raining i was crying. I fall for him again! I don't want to repeat the history!
"Your stupid" i said
I was walking on the streets hugging myself. I love him but I can't. Suddenly I didn't feel the rain is dropping on me i look up there's an umbrella
"Come on y/n your going to get sick" mattia said i walk away from him
"Stay there" i said and countinue to walk
"Y/n your going to get sick!" He said
"Fuck! Here we go again!" I rub my hand to my face he just stare at him "you know how to get me" i point at him "one smile, one hug, one kiss then my world start to turn again. Fuck mattia! Im a smart person but when it comes to you i become so stupid. What's the catch if i comeback to you? My world is going to stop for you? I will waste another year for you? Fuck it, you know mico? He's going to be a doctor, emily? Happily married. Me? Im still trying to fix everything that i lost the past years the day you left me." I said between my sob
"Y/n im sorry" he look down
"And what makes that sorry different from all your sorry before? my 4 years of my life i give it to you and for that 4 years i only said im tired for the first time. I ask myself for ONCE if i can still do it. Only once did i have the courage to say what I really felt. That im hurting, that im slowly fading. Once in so many times i could give up, but I didn't do it." I cracked "but only one out of that for you to give up, for you to leave and not come back." I breathe then put my hand in my hips
"I needed you to fight for us that night, because i was so tired fighting alone. Even if i say you to leave, your not going to leave because you know me mattia, i only said that because im tired but i love you." I breath again then sob
"i still love you... i still love you y/n" he said while crying
"But i just got tired for once, you left me? Is that how you love mattia?" I stare at him he didn't say anything. I was really angry at him "How could you give up so easily?.... How did you not find a reason to stay?" I breathe heavily he just stand there and look at me
We're soaking wet under the rain and for crying.
Mattia
I was staring at her no words got out on my mouth. I really hurt her, I didn't know this is how she felt. She didn't give up on us, she support me so much that there's nothing left for herself. She give her all 4 years for me, but all i do was hurt her.
"Im not letting you drained me again" she stops crying "when the rain stops, when i got home i want you gone. Im just going to mail you if there's something you need to sign for the house" she walk passed by me i just stand there
