Mattia
I've been with this wonderful girl for a year now and i still can't believe how lucky i am to have her in my life. At this point i was thinking of how am i going to propose to her, I can't help myself to think my future with her in it.
"Tia! Your zooming out again!" I hear her laugh which is like music to my ears
"What?? Are you saying something?" I ask her while staring at her beautiful face
"Yes, i was talking to you for like 10 mins and you didn't hear what i said!" She said and chuckle "what are you thinking again?" She cross her arms
"Nothing" i said and hold her hand
"Really?" She raise her eyebrow at me
"It's just I can't believe that we've been together for like 3 years. I can't stop thinking about future with you, like how am i going to propose to you one day." I smile at her "i know this thing is to cliche, and very not me. But I want you to be part of my future, living with you with our children" i stare at her she was blushing it's like she's going to explode
"O-oh my gosh... i never thought you will like this?" She smile so big "you're so cute mattia. So you start with it maybe let's talk about it" she said
We picture our future together having our own house how big is it, how many rooms etc. we also talk about how many kids we want. I told her i want five boys so i will teach all of them how to play soccer/football
"Mattia that's a lot you know!" She said
"But i want to build a team!" I said at her while cuddling her in bed
"That's gonna be painful! It's not easy to have baby in your tummy you knowww" she said to me and pinch my arm
"Aww! Okay okay! Three? Three boys? Is that enough?" I said but she shake her head no
"No not boys, let's have a baby girl" she said i nod my head and imagine our baby girl looks like her
"That's good enough. She's gonna be pretty like her mom" i look down at her she blush again i love seing her blush
"But she will have your long eyelashes" she said and touch my lashes she loves it so much
We talk a lot and then we noticed it's already 2am we've been talking for like 2 hour about out future but it feels so good. I really love her so much
"Let's sleep baby. It's already 2 am" she said i shake my head no she rolled my eyes "you want me to sing again?" She ask i nod she always singing for me when I can't sleep she sing to me until the chorus
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away"
I love hearing her sing, it makes me relax so much. And that song is the first song she sung to me when i met her. It's our song now. I listen to her until i fall asleep
Y/n
I sing the song to him. Talking about our future is the best, but when he said me being with him makes me feel the butterflies in my stomach. I felt his head gets heavy, it's a sign he's already asleep
"I love you my sunshine" I whisper to him and sleep
Other day...
Mattia is going to florida because there's an event, I can't go with him because its only for them. I don't have budget to buy some plane tickets so im just going to wait for him. He will be gone for 3 weeks that is long yes im going to miss him.
"No girls okay?" I said to him as i wrap my arms around him
"Yes no girls i promise" he said and kiss my forehead. His flight being called "im going to miss you, i will call you okay?" I nod he kiss my lips
I watch him walk away, it felt like my sunshine has been removed from me, it's like this 3 whole weeks will be like my rainy days.
Some other day...
It's been 4 days since i saw mattia he calls me and even leave a message for me. I woke up feeling empty because mattia wasn't with me. I got up on my bed when i turn to my pillow there's a lot of hair! I immediately run to my mirror and turn around... i was loosing hair
"Mom!!" I was tearing up i head footsteps. My parents run to me they saw me i was crying
"Y/n what's w-" my dad was cut out when they saw a lot of hair in my hand
"Oh my god! We're going to the hospital now!" My mom said
Mattia
This event is fun but y/n hasn't answering my calls i got worried. It's been 1 week half, i call her mom to ask if she's okay but then it turns out not. So I packed up my things and booked ticket home.
Y/n
I can't believe this, im growing weak I can't even stand the bad thing is my leukemia is coming back. I thought i was healthy for good, i never thought to have it again. What am i going to say to mattia? The worst thing of all is..
"We run some test about her but the thing is mrs and mr y/l.... y/n situation is so serious we can't do anything about it.... she only have 1 month" the doctor said i was tearing up and my parents are crying "im sorry" he added and left
"Y/n?" I hear voice when i turn my head it was mattia he looked at my parents crying "what happened?" He ask i sniff
"Mom dad can i talk to mattia? Im going to tell him" i said they nod and went out i hold his hand and kiss it
"How you feeling?" He ask me
"Not good tia..." i run my hand through his hair "you know the things we talk about a week ago?" I ask him and smile weakly he nod "you know, i really want to have that, I want to spend my whole life with you. I want to have a house with you, I want to have your children, I want to grow a family with you" i said he was listening closely i was tearing up "but this thing had stop me to have that good future with you." I said
"W-what do you m-mean?" He ask his eyes are glossy
"I only have 1 week left... this thing is strong it making me weak. Im sorry I want to fight this but I can't it's too late" i said to him i felt myself sobbing "can you promise me something?" I ask him he nod i touch his cheek "will you find someone that will love you more than i do? I know im not the right person yet for you mattia, i know there still a perfect girl that will love you for you" he was also crying now "Have a perfect future with her. Im sorry if im going to leave you. But always remember I'll be there watching you grow more" i said to him
"I love you, i love you, i love you" he said and hug me tight
Last day...
Mattia
The last day im going to hold her hand and even feel her she's weaker than before and she's pale than ever. In a minute later they are going to remove her life support
"Baby.... can you sing to me?" She ask me i was crying im a mess
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away
I'll always love you and make you happy
If you will only say the same
But if you leave me and love another
You'll regret it all some day
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you" I try to sing every words its hard to see her leave like this
"I love you... mattia" she touch my cheek i hold her hand and i slowly feel in heavy
"Please don't take my sunshine away..." she's gone for good they took my only reason why im loving my life. They took the person that lights up my mood. They took the love of my life. They took my future...
They took my sunshine from me...
