mind over matter

love(?), again

I'm catastrophic when I kiss you thinking I can destroy all the makes my heart hurt and hurtle myself out of a bleak existence

I'm spilled red paint a romanticized bloodbath of what I learned in vulnerability and shame

every proud syllable an acidic drop of something citrus on my tongue
and I'm swallowing

I'm bitter when I hope you'll stick around when I don't

heal me recognize I've felt everything and been everyone in a few short months so I can't be her not even for you

I'm an inauthentic zombie of repetition the phoenix burnt and whole from dusk to dawn an unpredictable rise and fall a bird with no wings through it all

I've lost my colour and the humor in our flaws your laughter is a lightning shock to my lifeless body

time a forgotten obstacle between our joined hands the unspoken truth that neither of us will ever be enough for eachother

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don't forget to⤵️

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