I sat in my bed rubbing my small bump, i'm about two and a half months into my pregnancy. It's father is Jonah, my ex boyfriend, we broke up before he knew but I did tell him.
We aren't back together but he told me he would obviously be there to raise them along with me and take care of them and help in any way necessary. I was happy he was putting our problems aside to be a good dad.
He's come to most of my ultrasounds, it's always a bit awkward but i'm happy he's there.
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I cried in the little room the nurse had left me in to think about what she just told me.
"i'm sorry I can't find his heartbeat"
I felt horrible, I was in pain and my heart was broken. The nurse came back and talked to me for a few minutes, everything got taken care of, she let me wait in that room so I could calm down some more. I grabbed my phone calling Jonah.
"hey what's up?"
"can you pick me up?"
"uh yeah are you okay? where are you?"
"at the emergency room...I-I lost the baby"
"oh god...I'll be there in 10 minutes"
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I walked out and saw his car, I opened the passenger door and got in. I wiped my tears, he put his hand on my arm rubbing it gently.
He drove me to my place in silence, he walked me into my appartement to make sure I was okay. I turned to him and hugged him, he wrapped his arms around me as I cried again.
"I don't know what I did wrong"
"You didn't do anything wrong, it happens, sadly"
I didn't want to let him go, as much as I didn't want to admit it, I needed him.
"Look go put on some sweats, Ill make you something to eat"
I nodded and went into my room, when I walked back out he was in the living room collecting the fuzzy blankets and pillows, he told me to come over and sit, I did and wrapped myself in the blanket as he turned on netflix. He handed me a bowl of ramen.
"thank you"
"of course"
his phone started ringing, he got up and went into the kitchen but I still heard him.
"no bro I can't come over rightnow...no I gotta be with y/n rightnow...I'll explain later but I need to be here for now"
he came back and sat next to me, watching the show.
"Jo"
"yeah?"
"it was a boy"
he smiled
"thank you for being there for me, you could've just left me to deal with this on my own and you didn't, thank you...you would've been a great dad and you will in the future I know that"
He put his arm around me pulling me me i to him, he kissed my head.
"i'm here for you, I always will even if we're not dating anymore, I care about you and I was so happy when you told me you were pregnant. I'd always wanted a kid and I still do, It just wasn't meant to happen rightnow. I'm always here if you need me"
He stayed with me the rest of the night and checked up on me frequently in the following weeks and months. I couldn't have gotten through this experience without him.
