Mixtapes and Broken Promises

Chapter 3

Napakamot ako ng ulo. I don't know where this conversation is going because I can't even find the right words to say.

"I don't know. We only formally met kanina. But she makes me want to know more about her. I'm suddenly interested on what she likes... and what she doesn't like. Ewan ko ba, ma. I'm acting weird. And now I'm even saying a lot of weird stuff."

"Ang dami mo namang sinabi, anak. A simple 'I like her' will do." Tinawanan ako ni mama. "Binata na ang baby boy ko!" At tumayo na siya. Is she leaving?

I know mama probably feels sad because of what I opened up to her. Papa's always busy with work. Ate's chasing her dreams while living somewhere far from us. I'm sure nalulungkot siya sa idea na baka pati attention ko, hindi na sa kaniya naka-focus. But that will never happen. My mom is my favorite person.

Bago siya dumiretso palabas ng pinto... "Anak, don't rush things ha. I'm sure you feel like you're in a roller coaster ride. You're probably enjoying the extremities of your emotions. Pero hindi dapat puro puso ha, gamitin rin ang utak. In that way, you'll come up with decisions that you won't regret in the end. Mama loves you, anak. Good night."

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Tamang scroll-scroll lang ako sa Twitter. Effective 'tong pampatulog kasi medyo napapagod na rin 'yung mata ko. Matutulog na rin ako maya-maya.

Napangiti ako nang may mabasa akong isang tweet...

@espinosachase: I have the best mom anyone could ever ask for. I love you, mama.

Ang tamis naman! I'm sure Chase is blessed to have his mom kaya never siyang nahiya o nag-alangang ipangalandakan sa mundo 'yung pagmamahal niya sa mama niya. But tita is also blessed to have Chase as her son. Their family may not be the best, but I'm glad that their mother-and-son relationship is doing very well.

Paano ba mag-apply para maging parte ng Espinosa Family? Willing po ako. Char.

Matutulog na sana ako nang...

Chad Sebastian Espinosa: Thanks again for today. Sleep tight, Avrey.

Naku! Type nga ata talaga ako nito ni Chase, hindi niya lang alam!

I just sent him a smiling emoji as a reply. Baka humaba pa 'yung conversation tapos baka may mahulog na hindi naman dapat. Mahirap na. Itutulog ko na lang 'to.

Kinabukasan, nagising ako sa boses ni mommy, "Anak! Gising na..."

Pagtingin ko sa wall clock sa kwarto ko, 5:30AM pa lang naman. 6 o'clock kasi ako ginigising ni mommy everyday, so that I have an entire hour to get ready and at most 30 minutes para sa byahe. 8 o'clock pa naman kasi 'yung first class namin.

"Anak, gising na! May bisita ka sa baba." Huh? Si Krystal kaya? Pero imposible kasi 7AM na nagising 'yun dahil malapit lang naman 'yung bahay nila sa school.