Tears and Smiles (Boyxboy)

Chapter 11✔

The kiss was filled with passion and love. It showed that miles was sincere about what he was talking off but at the same time it messed with Axel's brain. His skin was burning where Miles touched him. His hand or Axel's cheek, another one resting on his waist, it seemed unnatural to him. All time space and oriantation was lost. All Axel could fell was Miles.

Axel just stood still, not responding. His brain was black, he didn't even know what was happening. After a couple of seconds, Miles pulled back and stared at Axel then at Kai. Confusion but confidence written on his face, Miles didn't know what he was doing. Neither did Axel. 

"What the fuck Miles? How are you playing this game. I can't believe what's going on over here. Like, are you serious...I need some time, I'm sorry" With that Axel ran to him, locking the door and fallingon his bed. 

He hated it. 

He hated that Kai and Miles were manupulating from the beginning. He hated how his body reacted to them. He hated the passion in that kiss. He Hated how he was so confused. 

He used to love kissing Miles when he was in high scool. Now, now he hates it. 

This is how he's going to get revenge on them. 

Axel didn't want to be played with again. He can't endure it again. All the pain and misery, he can't live through it again. He's going to break their heart just like they broke his. He's going to put them through the same misery. 

But, a small part buried somewhere felt guilty. He knew it was not his fault. He was only going to take revenge on them.

Then why did he feel like someone was stabbing him in the gut?

He fell asleep after sometime later completely unaware of the consequences which will follow that day's situation. The quiet climate present in the house was the clam before the storm.

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There was so much tension in the house, he didn't even hear them talking. He didn't know if he was supposed to move out from this house but he is currently staying there because they didn't tell him anything about leaving. Though he wasn't sure that would be for long enough.

He still had that interview scheduled on the 24th so if he just passes through that and gets a bonus, he'll be able to buy a new house and move out. Is he going to tell them about this? No he's not. He's gonna act like he loves them back. He's gonna lean them on and on and then break their heart. Just like they did to him.

He still had so many doubts. Did they talk about what happened? How did Kai react to that?  Axel wanted to talk to someone, to have a shoulder to lean on especially during times like now. But well, he didn't have anyone, did he?

Still, he was going start acting his right away. He's gonna go them he loves them back. He's gonna tell them he'll never move out. Lead them on until the date of his interview. Then, after he gets the job, he''s gonna bail, start a new life, fallin love with someone new and live a happy life.

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(18th October 2026, Miles, Kai)

Axel was about leave, possibly to go to his room when Miles connected Axel's lips with his.

Miles had no clue what about what he was doing. He was guilty, that was for sure but he also felt this feeling of desire, desire to want Axel back. He acted on impulse and kissed Axel but it still felt so right. He didn't know what to do with this though. He was the one who broke up with Axel all those years ago but back then, that felt right. Now, this was feeling right. He pitied himself for having missed years of happiness with Axel and Kai, together, only if he would have not broken things with him.

Miles only snapped back into reality when he felt that Axel wasn't kissing him back. Not that he expected Axel to forgive him in a fraction of a second and kiss him back, however he does now know what to expect. He wished Axel forgave him but he knew he didn't deserve it.

As soon as he broke the kiss with Axel, the first thing that came to his attention was Kai. He just kissed his ex-boyfriend if front of his fiancé Great! He has such an amazing timing (note the sarcasm). He looked at Axel and then at Kai when he heard Axel run upstairs, this time he was sure, to his room.

Guilt immediately consumed him. He is so stupid. He is repeating the same mistake over and over again. He should have talked through this. To ask how Kai and Axel felt. To take some time, think about this and respond accordingly. He wanted to deal with this like adults, not like the teenagers they were 7 years ago.

Miles kept staring at Kai, scared of his reaction.

Kai just stared back before sighing and shaking his head. "We need to talk" Was the only thing he said before going to their room. Kai looked relatively calm considering the present situation. He wasn't shouting and yelling so Miles thought it was fairly better. He waited for a couple of minutes, thinking about what he was going to tell before going inside their room.

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Kai was feeling a lot of things at once. Surprise, guilt, slight anger, grief, confusion, he felt so chaotic that he couldn't think straight. He was also feeling calm but he didn't know the reason for that. He didn't even know how to react to Miles's sudden action. It was obvious that Miles acted on impulse but he wanted to hear that from Miles.

Guilt was another strong emotion swirling inside him. He's blaming himself for what happened all those years ago. If it wasn't for him, Axel and Miles would have been happily together without any of this drama. He's so stupid. He was still blaming himself when Miles entered inside, looking at everything except Kai. Kai stood up and nodded at Miles before saying, "You have 5 minutes to explain yourself."

"I... um ... I don't know why I did that, something snapped. I'm actually really sorry but I regret breaking up with Axel. If I would've just followed the original plan, none of this would've happened. It's all my fault. If the three of us would've been together, then none of this would've happened. I'm so stupid. Now everyone will hate me. But I deserve it. After hurting Axel, then you, I deserve to rot in hell. I don't deserve any of you." By the end of Miles's rant, tears were already dripping down his face.

After all these years of them being together, this was the first time Kai saw Miles this vulnerable. Miles was always the tough one. He would always stay strong and firm and was never the one to let tears out. But seeing Miles like this snapped something in Kai so he immediately dropped his cold glare and hugged Miles.

"Hey, shh... I don't hate you. Neither does Axel. Everyone makes mistakes. I've made mine and you've made yours. Both of us are at fault here. We hurt Axel and now we should fix this. But first, please don't tell that you don't deserve us. No, you do. You're the prefect one for me. But you know what? Axel deserves much better than us. We hurt him so much but he still loves us. So, please calm down and stop blaming yourself." Kai slowly rubbed circles on Miles's thigh while whispering soothing words to calm him down. 

They laid in each other's arms for quite some time in comfortable scilence, regreting everything what happend in the past. And at this very moment someone knocked on their open door.

"Axel...come in. I...I don't think..uh..I don't think I can apologise enough for this. I never considered about how you felt and just acted on impulse...I-"

"Calm down Miles...that's what I came here to talk about. I think I forgive you. I know...you hurt me real bad but the only thing I want right now is to be happy and I'm happy with you. Both of you. Even though you're not entirely forgiven...if you work enough for it...maybe we can happy again. I'm ready to give you a second chance. D you want to take it?"