Unexpected | Sarah Paulson & fan

You're the one that I want | Chapter 7

We spent a lot of time on the couch just chatting, kissing and cuddling. Sarah is really great, I think my favorite thing about her is how sexy and cute she can be at the same time. And she is also a natural dork, I love her sense of humor. She literally couldn't spend more than 10 minutes without telling a joke, she would just literally kiss me and tease me and then make a weird noise and a weird face just to make me laugh. I called that "pulling a sarah" cause we agreed to take things slow and every time the kisses were getting too hot she'd just make a funny move so we would slow things down.

After a while I was showing her my apartment and Sarah saw my pictures on the table and asked me if she could see them.

"Who is this?" - she asked me, and out of all pictures I could not believe this is the one she picked. "that's my ex, nicole" - I answered and her face changed completely. "oh, ok... she is very pretty... it's cool... you know... she's a good looking girl" for as much as she looked adorable being jealous I didn't want her to be upset but she wouldn't stop talking so I could explain things to her, so she continued - "and she looks young too... I mean she must be your age right?" "sarah, stop" "what? I'm not doing anything I am just saying your girlfriend looks pretty" "she's not my girlfriend" "yeah I know, you just keep pictures of her in your house" - I took the picture off of her hands and took her hand "sarah, she is no longer my girlfriend" and sarah just shook her head and looked down, so I tilt her chin up - "hey stop, it's just a picture, ok?" and she touched my hand very softly - "yeah, ok" "we dated for 5 months or so when we were 17, it was a long time ago and that was it, it's over" "why did you two break up?" "I barely remember but she was a jerk to me all the time" "then why keeping this? do you still have feelings... for her?" - she asked me like she didn't want to hear the answer. "nooooooo, no, it was a long time ago, I swear I don't have feelings for her. I don't know why I keep this, I guess I never thought about it as a picture of Nicole I just think about it as random picture I took..." - Sarah didn't say anything she just stood there looking at me like she was afraid of something

"Listen to me, you are the person I am attracted to. I don't want nothing to do with Nicole, I want you. You are beautiful. You are like the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I swear. I don't care if she's my age. I don't care for any other girl that is my age to be honest, I want you" - Sarah looked at me and her eyes were very soft, she stood up and hugged me real tight. "You are the best, Y/N. I am sorry... I overreacted... I just don't know what this is yet and I-" I stopped her with a gentle peck on her lips - "Let's just enjoy each other's company, ok? Don't worry about any of this now" "Yeah, you're right. We can do that... You are the best, did you know?" "Know what?" "That you are the best person I have ever met" "Sorry I didn't hear you, can you say that again, like how I am the best person you've ever met?" - we both chuckle and she kisses me - "and still you have the balls to call ME a narcissist, huh?" "yeah, but you are my favorite narcissists" - i say and kiss her again.

We chatted a little more and she went home. Although I explained the whole Nicole thing to her I think she was a little off after that and I feel really bad for keeping that picture, I threw it on the trash right after she left. I hope she is not upset with me, I had a great time today with her, she is amazing and I really want to be with her. It was 4 PM and she promised she'd text me when she gets home but she never did, so I texted her.