The Better Part of Me

CHAPTER 11: I SHOULD'VE KNOWN

"All done." Xavier just finished putting my bag into his trunk. Yes, just one bag, we'll only be there for 2 days and I don't use makeup so, I only need one bag, and actually, I still have some spaces left, which surprised Alexandra and of course, mom. 

"You ready?" He asks me.

"Let's go." I am actually pretty sleepy and nervous, mostly nervous because I have been anti-social for I don't know.. two years? But to see the bright side, this might be a chance for me to gain new friends. It's pretty lonely when your only friend is your sister.

"You got the invitations, Xavi?"

"Yeah, it's in my bag."

This is a two hours ride, and I can only think about two things. First, will they like me? It's like the first day of school all over again, I can't avoid all the stares and the questions. Second, how will they react to the invitation? I really really don't know how they will react so, me being me, I assume the worst. I need to prepare myself.

"Jess, I want to continue our 20 questions. I want to know more about you. Plus we have 2 hours to spend."

Why out of the blue... 

"O-okay, sure. You ask first. I still don't know what to ask."

"Who's your first kiss?"

I did not expect that... why that question... I thought he was going to ask about ... Well, I don't know, I am a pretty boring person, he already asked everything the first time, from colors to foods and my favorite subjects. But, still too random though... 

"You know, you're supposed to ask subtle questions first..." I say to him.

"I know. But I am curious." He laughs a bit.

"It's Ty..."

"Wait really? Your first kiss?" He sounds surprised. Of course, cause it's not normal for someone to have their first kiss in college... Even some elementary school students have already had their first kiss. Alexandra was surprised too because she had her first kiss when she was in 6th grade. 

"Yep." I nod my head.

"So, Ty is your first boyfriend?"

"Yes..." I wish I could turn back the time. "Isn't this my time to ask?"

"Okay, you get to ask twice."

"Who's your first kiss?"

"It's a girl in middle school, her name is Laurel."

"She's your first girlfriend?"

"No, I kissed her because we were playing spin the bottle. My first girlfriend is a girl named Thea. I don't know where she is now. My turn again. Who's your second boyfriend?"

Why is he asking all these things... Why is he so interested in my relationship history all of a sudden? 

"No one. I have only ever dated Ty."

"Why?" Oh, should I say because I am traumatized? Or should I say because it's hard to let myself receive any form of love from another man because I can't trust them? Of course, I can't say any of that...

"I just... want to focus on my study." I am not even convinced by my own answer, I know Xavi doesn't want to accept the answer and wants to dig deeper for the truth. But thank god he's a nice and patient person so he lets it go.

"What kind of attitude or personality do you hate the most?" I ask him this because I need to know what he doesn't like in a person so, I can be cautious. I really want to build a great friendship with this guy.