Randomness/Nothing Important

A Little Problemo

So, remember how I said that my mom and my step dad went to the casino? Yeah, that was about 2 hours ago. And me being a type of person that cannot stand to be alone and that needs attention, I'm not okay right now. I don't feel good. And I feel like crying. I don't even know why. Reasons are unknown.

But we all have our things for what we do.

That didn't make any sense, did it? Ha, of course it didn't.

But I just wish I could have someone here with me. I just wish someone would cuddle with me. I just wish someone could tell me that they love me. But that's never going to happen. Because I'll always be alone. And...I don't know. But yeah.

And even though I do talk to a lot of people on here, I'm still sad and lonely. To be honest, it makes me feel even more sad. But I think that's because it's not actually talking with someone face to face, and instead, talking to someone on a screen.

Just like talking to any other person. Back then, they did a thing called Pen Pals. They used to write letters and send them to each other. But today, with all of this technology, it's getting even worse. How you may ask? Well...they say that a human could get even more sad, because you're talking to someone through the phone, and not seeing what they have to say for themselves. You don't get to see their writing, you don't get a familiar smell of them (sorry if that sounds weird), and you don't get anything familar.

Because in my opinion, just like how you see yourself in a mirror, when you call of FaceTime someone, it's like seeing a clone or a fake of them. Like..it doesn't seem like the real person.

Anyways, I'm a bit depressed, yeah, I know I said I'm not, but I am sorta. But again, I want to learn to smile forever.

Now, I'm going to go be a sad person and continue to watch Markiplier. I usually watch him because it keeps me company. It makes me think that he's talking to me...ah, I'm crazy, aren't I? Yeah, heh, I know. You don't have to tell me. It's a well known fact by now.

So I'm going to leave now.

No one bothers talking to me, unless I'm feeling hurt. And that's true. I tried to text a lot of my friends a few hours ago and they still haven't replied. Yet they can comment on every chapter that I put out about me being sad and depressed...

For real, I'm leaving now. Okay, bye.