My Delicate Sunshine |COMPLETED|

Little by Little

A week had passed and I've been avoiding them all. Ni isa sa kanila, hindi ko kinakausap, even my mom. I've been imprisoning myself in my room and been absent from my work. I stopped taking care of my own health.

I've been depressed.

Paulit-ulit kong pinipikit ang mata ko at inaalala lahat ng pinag daanan namin ni Lege noon. Masaya naman kami, masaya naman kami, sobra. We've been together from our teenage years till we got matured. We were strong.

We were perfect.

Bakit kami pa ang kailangan ma ganito ngayon? Bakit nangyari lahat ng ito? Why us? Why me? Bakit parang ako lang ang dinudurog nito?

I need him.
I need him right now.
I want to hug him so tight and hear him say everything's gonna be alright.
I want him now.

Iyak ako ng iyak habang naliligo at nagbibihis. Ang alam ko lang noon ay gusto ko siyang makita, makausap at mayakap.

After preparing myself, hindi ko na naisip na ayusin ang buhok at mukha ko. Dumiretso ako sa sasakyan kahit gabing gabi na. Hinabol ako ni mommy at Ela ngunit di ako nakinig. I drove so fast, iyon bang gusto kong liparin nalang ako ng hangin.

Pakiramdam ko kasi noon there's no point of talking to anyone, wala ni isa sa kanila ang makakapagpagaan ng bigat sa aking dibdib.

I know who I really need and It won't change over the years, it's Legend.

Dalawang bese akong pumindot sa doorbell bago bumungad sa akin si Tita Alegeya.

"Shine!" she was so surprise seeing me in front if the gate at past midnight, looking like a real waste. I drove half an hour away to reach here kahit na ang layo ng bahay nila.

"What took you here? You look so... devastated." She let me in the gate and she carressed my hair. Niyakap ko siya agad ng napaka higpit and bursted out sobbing.

"Tita mamamatay ako pag di ko siya nakasama. I'm gonna die without him. I don't know what to do. I can't take it anymore." I sobbed. Durog na durog ang puso ko ng mga oras na iyon.

"I know anak. Naiintindihan ko. Alam ko sobrang sakit ito para sa iyo but you have to be strong. You must be strong. Kung meron mang taong kinailangan magpakatatag para sa kanya, ikaw iyon Shine. Mahal ka ng anak ko, ikaw ang papakasalan niya in the near future." She wiped my tears and tied my hair with her bracelet.

"Look at you, you look so hopeless." She tied my hair with her extra hair tie and held my chin. "Wag na wag mong isipin na ikaw lang mag isa ang humaharap sa ganito kahirap na sitwasyon. You have me, your friends, your family. Lahat kami andyan para sa iyo."

I was somewhat relieved of what she said. Tama nga talaga sila, in times of depression you only need a simple talk. One simple talk and you'll feel loved and hopeful even until now, I can really say a lot of people love me.

"Oh, i'm glad you came hija." bungad ni Tito Dimuel galing sa itaas. Nagmano naman ako.

"Sorry, tonight was totally unexpected."

"No, we've been contacting you for almost a week. Akala namin na paano ka." He informed me which made me realized i've been ignoring all the chats, texts and calls on my phone.

"Kasi hija, Legend was also devastated. He was looking for you.He seemed so uptight after you left the hospital. He kept on asking about you." My heart clutched.

"He kept on crying at night, forcing himself to remember you. We even caught him slapping his head in front of the big frame of the picture of you together. He is having a hard time now too, kailangan niyo ang isa't isa anak." It made me realized that our hearts still connect and it will forever be connected.