My Delicate Sunshine |COMPLETED|

Betrayal of Identical Blood

One and a half year had passed already and everything was still the same. No improvements in his memory but a lot changes. He turned into a man I never saw and never expected him to be. Madalas na siyang wala sa bahay kapag dumadating ako sa kanila. Our healing time got reduced until it came to the point na pag ka uwi niya, pinapauwi niya rin ako dahil matutulog na siya. Pinapangakuan niya ako na bukas nalang.

Pero ganun parin, the cycle just kept on going.

Kahit nasasaktan na ako ng sobra, I never showed him any hint of sadness. Gusto ko makita niya that there is still a lot to fight for. Kahit mawalan na ako ng oras sa pakikipag usap sa iba kong kaibigan at maskin ang mag ayos sa sarili ko. I totally lost myself in the sense of fighting.

Today is Lege's birthday, nag handa kami ng family niya for dinner but he wasn't home yet. We even waited for an hour before he surprised us all.

He entered the house.

With my sister, Ella.

Nagulat ako. Nagulat kami. No one got the courage to speak up. Ewan ko kung anong mararamdaman ko nun. My heart was pounding so fast, I couldn't even move. I couldn't even blink.

My gaze landed on their hands, entertwined with each other.

"What's this Legend?" simula ni Tito na napatayo sa harap ng mesa kung saan kami nakaupo.

"Mom, dad. Since its my 24th birthday. I want to officially introduce to you, my girlfriend. Mekaela Vallejo." he calmly stated as he looked at her and smiled. The smile he never showed me.

I stood up slowly. I was shaking. My face was turning red as I'm about to cry. I believed, I had a lot to say, a lot to ask but wala ni isang salita ang lumalabas sa bibig ko.

Tiningnan ko ang kapatid ko. Nagtama ang mga tingin namin. Agad tumulo ang mga luha ko.

Why?

"Alam mo ba ang pinag sasasabi mo anak?!" sumbat ni tita na napatayo na rin at hinarap sila. "Are you even thinking? Andito si Shine! Bakit mo to ginagawa?" she added with teary eyes.

"You want to introduce us your girlfriend in front of your fiancee?! Your fiancee who have been fighting alone for your relationship! How could you?" her sister bursted out as she slammed the table. Iyong mga sigaw nila, ang sakit pakinggan. Nakakaawa ako.

"She isn't my fiancee."

My whole world stopped the moment I heard those.

"Coz if she is, I could have remembered everything we had in less than a year! 5 years? Kung ganyan kami katagal nagsama, why is it so hard for me to remember her?! Ni katiting wala!"

Napapikit ako. Parang biglang namanhid ang puso ko at nanuyo ang lalamunan.

"Tama na Lege." rinig kong bulong ni Ela. I opened my eyes trying to compose myself.

"No Ela, I will fight for you." He spatted out angrily.

Lumapit si Tita sa kanilang dalawa and she slapped my sister without any hesitations. I could still hear the sound in my ears eventhough I was crying.

"Kapatid ka nito hindi ba?" She hissed as she pointed me. "How could y--" pinigilan niya ang sarili na magsalita dahil ramdam na ramdam kong nangga galaiti na siya sa galit. "Mayroon ka bang delikadesa babae ka?!"

"Mom! Stop!" Legend pushed his mom dahilan para matumba ito. Agad naman kaming lumapit ni Ate Cristine para patayuin si Tita.

"Ikaw Shine? Naiintindihan mo naman ako hindi ba?" I met his coldest gaze. It was the sharpest yet pleading gaze I met, as if he wants me to agree with him.

"Everyone here in the house! They're on your side. Lahat sila, pinipilit akong mahalin ka. Napepressure ako araw araw na aalahanin ka para maituloy iyong naudlot daw nating kasal. Nakakasakal! Nakakapressure! You don't..." Bumuhos na ang luha niya.

"You don't understand how hard it is for me. How can you love someone you don't know? Someone you don't remember... How can you continue your future with someone you didn't even see in your past?" Patuloy niyang pinapahid ang mga luha.

Sa mga oras na iyon, napag tanto kong sobrang nasasakal na rin siya sa sitwasyon. Na He wanted to escape but he can't because I was still there. All along, I though He wanted to fight.

"You want to, stop? To just, forget and start a new life?" I took all the courage to answer him and to clarify everything. After all, his feelings is the most important thing for me. Gustuhin ko mang ipag patuloy ang pag laban, I don't want to appear selfish.

"Isa't kalahating taon na Shine, ngunit, wala pa rin." He said, trying to wipe his wet face. "Can you just let me go?"

Those were the things I never imagined he would ask to me. The idea of letting him go will definitely kill me. Di ko alam ang gagawin ko non, i was wholefully torn between fighting for us or setting him free. Both was hard but the latter will kill me.

Kasi ang sakit sakit eh. Buo pa rin sa isip ko na isang araw maalala niya ako, ang lahat sa amin. Kahit ikamatay ko, gusto ko parin lumaban eh.

The next thing I did shocked all of them, even I. I knelt down in front of him, I grabbed both of his hands and pleaded a lot as I was sobbing.

"Please say you still want to fight. Bawiin mo lahat ng sinabi mo kanina Legend. Please say you love me. Pls. say you love me once again." I cried so hard. Maskin ako, di ko alam na magagawa ko ang bagay na iyon. Na mag makaawa at manlimos ng pagmamahal.

Hinablot niya ang kamay niya.

His family were forcing me to stand up, telling me it will make me look weak, but no, kneeling down in front of him is fighting the battle.

Fighting for him.

"Please." That was the only thing he responded. He looked at me in the eyes. At pinatayo niya ako. I thought he was going to pull me in again in his life but I was wrong.

"I believe that God has a greater plans for you alone without me... Give me freedom." He wiped all the tears in my cheecks but its just unstoppable. "Please." he whispered.

I wiped my tears again and nodded.

I finally got to choose what's best for the both of us.

"I will now let you go." I sadly smiled. "Hindi mo man ako maalala ngayon, gusto kong tumatak sa isip at puso mo na, sinubukan ko... Sinubukan kong lumaban."

I took a step backward. Nanginginig ako. Parang hindi pa talaga ako handa sa bagay na to. Hindi ko naman talaga inisip na dadating ako sa puntong ito.

"At kung dumating man ang araw na maalala mo ako. I will pray it won't be too late. I will never stop loving you."

I faced his family and saw them crying. Niyakap ko sila isa isa and thanked them for giving me the chance to fight for their son.

Then, I started to walk away from them...

I saw my bestfriend standing beside the door with a wrapped gift in his hand.

I walked pass him and ignored his calls.

I walked away without minding the unstoppable tears.