blood and brains and angel cake

october

remember when we were sitting side by side watching terrible karaoke on a wooden stage and the microphone was too goddamn loud and i could feel the heat on your body against mine you glowed like sunshine even though it was two am and the sun set hours ago i told you your handwriting sucked "like boys' handwriting ALWAYS does" and you just laughed i grabbed your hand you didn't say a word and i felt so young i could've kissed you

i remember that moment so often it lives behind my eyelids now

i remember thinking, i could be in love with you if that's what you wanted