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𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕠𝕟𝕖

The funeral was quite splendid. The food was great. I got to see my friends. So then why do i feel like some part of me is missing? Clearly, the fact that my 𝕓𝕣𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 committed suicide has nothing to do with my conflicting feelings. It must be the weather. For nothing else has changed, besides my 𝕓𝕣𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣'𝕤 life status.

 My friends say it's concerning that I'm not mourning. But how could I? To be frank, I find it concerning as well. But what I find even more concerning is the fact that mother and father are... crying? But why..? I don't understand why they should be sad..? Nothing terrible has happened.. So they shouldn't feel sad.

 The second I asked, I regretted it.

"Kaa-san? Why are you crying?" I ask with curiosity

"Excuse me?" she replied, a hint of disappointment and disgust etched on her face.

"Why are you crying? Did something happen?" I asked, genuinely concerned.

Well I suppose I shouldn't have asked. For I got a slap to the face. 

But why? 

I don't understand.