MY SECRET ADMIRER | tk ✔

chapter 06

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when someone start admire a person he wants to adore them as they are---

but meantime the person also wants to be a perfect example for his admirer.

and that's what exactly happened, something changed in jungkook-----

a good change.

ever since reading his secret admirer's thought about bad boys jungkook indeed stop going out with them---

he rather spend his free time reading diary and smiling like fool while thinking how cute his secret admirer can become--

each line shows his cuteness and the way his secret admirer describes his little things just make the ravenette's heart swell with happiness

he keep reading---- greedy to know more good and positive things which his secret admirer suggest him through his diary---

like he even start focusing on studies--- why ? because his secret admirer once wrote___

" jungkookie, you should focus on studies too I'll be very proud and happy if you do---"

It's so weird how he start getting attached to a diary--- He doesn't even knew whose diary it is, expect that fact he is his crusher.

reading diary makes jungkook happy.

very happy.

he never had thought he would be like this type of diary thing, ever in life----

"guys do you think jungkook start ignoring us ?" Jackson, one of a popular boy in school, asked

" yes he doesn't talk to us properly anymore--- he even start focusing on studies more" bambam his friend stated--

" I always watch him reading that creepy purple book thing!" yugyeom grumble out

" let's see what is inside that purple shit" Jackson smirk as other also nod at his idea as they immediately walk closer to jungkook----- who was reading the diary

nowadays, the ravenette haired bring the diary with him everywhere---

to read it quickly if he gets any free time---

after all----the diary has become his new friend.

"hey jungkook !" Jackson said making jungkook snapped out of his diary dreamland___

"uhm hi guys" jungkook awkwardly said

"what are you reading bro ?" Yugyeom asked trying to peek inside the diary___

" ah nothing--" jungkook quickly said closing the diary almost putting it back in his bag but before he could Jackson grab it---

" mind letting us see ?" he smirked devilishly

unknown about the trouble he is asking for.

" Jackson give me it back" jungkook deadpanned, glaring at him---

"how about no ?"

"then I'll fucking kill you" jungkook firmly said glaring at them furiously

not in a mood for tolerate their shits.

jungkook tried to grab diary again but Jackson throw it to yugyeom who catch it quickly

"yugyeom give it to me---"

"what is it jungkook ? why you are being so serious about this purple shit bro ?" bambam chuckled

"I'm not gonna ask again, give it to me or else it won't be good for y'all"

jungkook said in firm voice there was no hint of joking---

" bro seriously I rather ripped off this piece of shit__" Jackson immediately get cut off by a harsh and solid punch on his jaw__

" I had warned you---"

rest of friends look at jungkook with wide eyes as Jackson laying over ground holding his bleeding jaw___

yugyeom quickly returned diary to jungkook in fear--

" next time think before messing with me" with that jungkook leave them behind in horror---

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" those bustards---- how dare they try to steal you from me ! those fuckers!" jungkook was ranting about his bad boy group to his diary

jungkook hold diary close to his chest hugging it like his life depends on it----

"thank god I'm strong enough to save you baby---" he laughed at his own remark.

as he sat straight on his bed opening the diary again to start reading it---

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Dear jungkookie..

today I saw you at park , there wasn't many people, you were sitting on a side bench alone---

and was enjoying the weather--- I was there too, sitting quite far away from you

you didn't notice me just like always.

but I'm not sad because today something happens, which changes my whole feeling about you....

today just watching you from afar make me realised how important you have become for me ...

never in my life I ever thought about love before I saw you..but today I realised maybe I fell for you---

maybe even before I realised.

seeing you smiling there bring a smile on my face, It feels like I'm in heaven whenever I see you.

when you are happy I'm happy and when I see you upset I feel like someone stab my heart. If it's on me I would have give you whole universe's happiness.

why?.....

because you deserve it kookie.

I start loving you so much beyond my imagination, that now it's start hurting me----

not being able to talk to you hurts, not being able to hold you hurts, not being able to deserve you hurts kookie and you know what's more worse than this ?

not seeing you.....

not seeing you one day can make my life misery.

I'm scared kookie I'm so scared what if I fell more deeper than I already had?

I'm scared I'll hurt myself by falling in love for someone who doesn't even aware of my existence?!

I want you to at least look at me for once I want you to at least know my name but may be it will be a my dream only but it's not your fault kookie----

maybe, I'm not made for you... but still I love you.

your admirer

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That's it.... For now I'll update when I write more chapters till then see you tata...>~<