MY SECRET ADMIRER | tk ✔

chapter 15

" dorm sweet dorm" that's the first thing jungkook said after entering his dorm room , after all it was a very tiring day in school

Teachers start giving them assignment and informing them about up coming tests

But one good thing happened in this whole shitty day and that is he finally had found his secret admirer... taehyung's pic

Jungkook grin in this thought as he pulled out his phone and look at taehyung's pic again

He throw his beg on study table and slammed himself on bed with a silly smile

And without any second thought this dork set his crusher or should say his new crush's pic as a wallpaper--

"Oh shit I didn't read dairy last night!" Suddenly he exclaimed sitting up on his bed as he reached diary "let's see"

Dear kookie,

I'm sorry, I didn't wrote diary since last three weeks , actually my exams are going on that time and I was focusing in studies , I was so stressed and didn't knew what to write anymore---

Don't worry my exams went very well in fact results comes out too and guess what ? My marks is really good , I came on first rank in my class and then school had organized farewell ceremony for us , all went very good overall

But now what? School is over, do you know what that's means?

Yeah I have to move out of my dorm, no more small dorms , no more cafeteria, no more school , no more you....

Now when I will leave this place--- you will leave my life too , I won't be able to see your beautiful yet handsome face everyday

Even though you aren't aware of my existence but for me , you are a big part of my life-- how can you not though , after all you are my first love but I think you never meant to be mine

But I still can't complain because it's my fault that I never got some courage to confess my feelings to you , confessing is far thing I couldn't even say a simple hello to you

Well I won't denied yes I'm so scared to even come front of you, I don't know but when you are surrounded me , my heart just ready to jump out I get so flustered and nervous , I tried but I couldn't approach you

Because I somewhere thinks you won't like talking to a weird person like me , i might be wrong but now it's too late for regret and the things what scares me alot is if I ever get to talk to you I'll fall in love with you more and will never wants you to leave me--

And in the end my expectations will hurt me , I can handle not being part of your life , I will be fine being a unknown person in your life

But getting rejected is something my heart can't takes , maybe that's why I never confessed because I'm afraid to get reject-- heartbroken

Anyway lets forget it , my new life is going to being, a new chapter of my life and I have to make right decision to make my life happy uhmm at least fine so I decided to stop writing diary from now on, why ?

Because I'm leaving and I don't know if I will ever see you again or not, and I have to move on I can't wait my all life to get noticed by you....well actually I can but there is no way you will come to me so it will be insane if I wait for someone who never gonna comes right?

But still you always will be most special to me like they says ----

' you can't forget your first love'

I wish you get all happiness in your life and find a person who will love you unconditionally and makes you most happiest person in the world.

I also hope you reach all success in your life jungkookie---

You never get to know this but I love you so much , goodbye ♡

Your admirer

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Jungkook again find himself boring holes in his dorm room's ceiling

He don't know how to feel, upset ? Hurt ? Angry ? He don't know how to react it's like he went numb

He just start feels like maybe--- no snatch that he has feeling for his secret admirer!... for taehyung!

But what now? Even if he tries to find taehyung and suppose he finds him ! But what if taehyung have already moved on? And found someone who actually knows his value ! There were millions of thoughts running inside jungkook's brain

He was assuming best to worse possibilities---

Suddenly his phone went off , pulling him out of his thoughts , jungkook groan sightly rolling over bed and reached his phone

" Hello ?"

" Hello buddy how are you?!"

Jungkook sighed when he heard hoseok voice--

" Fine hyung......I guess"

" Well you definitely not fine "

" Ah it's nothing hyung I just--- miss you guys ?" Jungkook nervously chuckled

" Okay now I'm hundred percent sure you are not fine , I'm gonna visit you tomorrow to find out what's wrong__"

" What ?! No hyung! Listen------"

" See you tomorrow "

Jungkook groan loudly out of frustration

" Fuck my life !"
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Same jungkook same (ー_ー;)