Love, Jack// Fack

At da hospital

Jack's pOV;

I was waiting for Finn. I told the nurse i didn't want to see anyone unless it was Finn. to pass the time away i started scribbling in my notebook that Finn gave me.

Dear finn,
hopefully you read this one day. i know i like never let you see what i write in this thing but i'm trying to save it for when you need it.

you make me so damn happy. and i'm sorry. but you have to hear me out first before you hate me forever...

ellie kisses me..i know i still fucked up because i kissed back. and you have every right TO hate me forever, but the only reason i kissed her is because she felt like you. once i realized she wasn't you at all, i pushed her away from me. but at that point it was too late.

you and jaeden had already walked off together. speaking of...how's your relationship? does he treat you right?

i hope he does. you deserve to be happy finn. and you deserve nothing less.

i stop writing because i hear my door open.

"Mr. Grazer?"
"Yes?"
"Finn is here."

i couldn't help but smile a little. I know he most likely hates my fucking guts but..if he came, it means he still cares. even if he only cares as a friend.

"Jack?"
"Finn.."

Finn sat down on the edge of my bed and smiled. He looked next to him and saw the book.

"I wanna read it!" he smiled as he grabbed the book out of my hands.

"Fine." i laid my head on his shoulder as he flipped through pages.

dear finn,
you got me this book thing today. it means a lot to me.

you're amazing!

he flipped through a few pages.

dear finn,
i wonder if i'm falling in love with you..
i wanna tell you. but i'm scared.

he flipped through at least 15 more pages.

dear finn,
you kissed me.

dear finn,
we started dating today.

dear finn,
we got in a huge ass fight. and i think you hate me.

dear finn,
you said you were sorry. and we are good again.

dear finn,
we broke up.

dear finn,
you saw ellie kiss me.

dear finn,
you started dating Jaeden.

dear finn,
you walked into school with Jaeden like he was your trophy.

dear finn,
you hurt me. but i hurt you first.

dear finn,
i'm sorry. i can't do this anymore.

Finn grabbed my hand and interlaced our fingers.

dear finn,
i cut myself. it helped the pain.

dear finn,
i think i cut too much. i'm bleeding a lot and i'm getting dizzy.
if i die, know that i love you. and that this is my fault. not yours.

Finn came across the one i wrote today and squeezed my hand a little after every paragraph.

"Jack?"
"Yeah?"
"I don't hate you. I could never hate you.."
"Y-you don't?"
"no."
"but jae-."
"i was trying to stop thinking about you. i was tired of crying every night.."
"oh..i'm sorry."
"it's okay.."
"finn?"
"yes?"
"i love you.."
"i love you too, princess"

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