Love, Jack// Fack

Finn's pov

It's been 3 weeks after Jack and i have broken up. and it's officially been 3 days since i committed. i don't know if i'm dead or if i'm in a comma. i hear jack, jaeden, sadie, millie, all of them. i see them, even though my eyes are closed. the doctors said that there wasn't much hope left. he said that i was basically dead. my heart rate is dropping a lot. every single day i loose 12 pounds of blood.
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*flashback*
"i'm sorry jack.."i sighed to myself.
"i don't wanna hear it Finn."
"i didn't do shit."
"you cheated."
"no i didn't."
"then what the fuck did i just walk into Finn?"
"i was just talking to him."
"while i was sleeping, uh-huh."
"do you want me to tell you?"
"sure."
"you were asleep and i was downstairs making food for us, he knocked on the door and we just started to talk."
"mhm."
"he told me he was in love with you, Jack."
"then why was he on top of you?!"
"i don't fucking know.."
"stop lying to me."
"IM NOT LYING TO YOU!"
"i..i can't anymore."
"what do you mean?"
"i can't." he sighed. "i'm done."
"done with what?"
"do you really not get it?" he lowly screamed. "i'm fucking done with this. with you."
"then leave." i said harshly.
"if that's what you want." he walked upstairs and packed up all of his things.
"Jack i..." i stood in my doorway, leaning on it.
"it's fine..i'll see you..when i see you."
i tired to reach out for him, to stop him, to anything. "Jack please-."
"no, maybe..maybe we need this."
"need what?"
"me leaving you."he sadly smiled.
"Jack.."
he looked up at me. "i love you."
"i love you..." i frown smiled and he got closer to me. he put his hands around my neck, mine around his waist and slowly closed the gap between us. kissing me, for the last time.
*3 weeksi was watching spongebob to keep my mind off of Jack.
*ding* my phone buzzed.
Jackie🥺🥰:hey.
me:hey. hru?
Jackie🥺🥰:i'm good..i wanted to talk to you..
me:yeah ofc.
jackie🥺🥰:so...jaeden and i..
me:yes?
jackie🥺🥰:*is typing....
Jackie🥺🥰:well. we're dating and we've been together for 2 weeks..
*seen*
i threw my phone down and walked into my bathroom.
"fucking idiot." i sighed to myself.
WARNING ⚠️ WARNING ⚠️ WARNING ⚠️
I grabbed the razor from out of the bathroom drawer and crawled into the tub. i cut 10 lines on each wrist, 5 on my thighs.
"it's all going to be okay.."i mumbled to myself.
and everything went black.
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*flashback over*
"SOMEONE GET THE FUCKING DOCTOR!" i heard Jack's small voice.
a few seconds pasted and i heard footsteps.
"Mr.Grazer? You didn't go home?"
"i..no sir."
"alright..what happened?"
"his blood is dropping again." i felt him grab my arm.
"shit.."
suddenly more footsteps approached.
"i have 10 pounds of Type O."
"damn it. we need 12.."
"I..have O." Jack was completely petrified of needles.
"would you be willing to give 2 pounds."
"for the love of my life?" how could he say that? he assumed, left, and started dating Jaeden a few weeks later.
"i thought you and Jae-."
"i broke up with him."
"okay..Nurse Ann.."
"i can take him."
he grabbed onto my arm a little tighter and kissed my cheek. "i'm sorry for not believing you until it was too late.."
i wanted to say something....
but..
i..
can't..
i'm sorry jack..