I don't know why... but I just found myself locked up in my room... really really frustrated.
Diana started the fight! She initiated it, I was just trying to give her a lesson dahil hindi ako yung babaeng kaya nyang ganun-ganunin na lang. And besides, I am telling the fcking truth!
Bakit ganun? Bakit pakiramdam ko, gusto kong magpaliwanag?
Never in my life have I wanted to explain my side... ngayon lang ata. At... kay Chase pa talaga.
I have always been 'walang pakialam' tungkol sa mga sasabihin ng ibang tao about sa asta ko.... ngayon lang.
Why do I feel like I want him to understand my side? To understand me?
"I was just trying to defend myself and teach her a lesson. She deserved it!" I shouted like someone would hear me.... like he would hear me
Seriously why is this such a big deal for me? What is happening to me?!? I have never been humiliated and ashamed like this.
Kailan pa ako nagkaroon ng pakialam?
Kailan pa ako nabagabag ng ganito?
Kailan pa ako nagkagustong maintindihan ako ng isang tao?!?
I covered my face with both of my palms and groaned loudly. Fck this.... this can't be... I can't be....
No way!!!!!!
Just............ no way.
I sighed heavily and looked at myself in the mirror. This is just a dare. Dare. Dare. Just a dare. He's just like my mission. Yeah he's just it. Nothing more.
This shouldn't be a big deal. No, this is isn't and this shouldn't be.
That was what I kept on saying to myself... I kept reminding my self that.... but as the days pass, ni hindi ko na nagawang lingunin si Chase. I don't know what's really happening... I just don't feel like approaching him after what happened... so the week passed without our paths crossing, malamang, eh ako lang naman tong lumalapit sa kanya. Aasa pa ba akong ako naman ang lapitan nya? Edi siyempre diba, hindi?
Why am I annoyed with the thought again?
"Kamusta na yung dare natin Juls... hmm, less than two weeks lang ang meron ka ah." paalala ni Moka sa'kin nang magpunta kami sa kanila para gumawa ng 'project', but since we're not that kind of students... we had movie marathon instead
"You know Juls, you can just tell us you don't want to do it anymore... may gusto nang bumili sa car mo eh." singit ni Khael at hinigpitan ang akbay sa'kin
We're in Moka's dark room... watching an action movie... gusto kase ni Khael action.
"Wag ka ngang KJ Kha, Julia will do it no. Wala lang yang gana pero babalik din yung drive nyan when she realizes na talagang mawawala yung beloved baby nya hahahaha." dagdag naman ni Cleo
Hindi ko sila sinagot. Seriously... I don't know anymore. Ang alam ko lang... mabigat ang pakiramdam ko at ilang araw ko narin itong dinadala. May mali na nga sa sarili ko. Hindi ako ganito dati. At hindi dapat ako ganito.
Pagkatapos naming manood ay nagyaya silang uminom pero... dahil nga wala na naman ako sa mood, nagpass ako.
"Seriously Julia, konti nalang talaga maniniwala na akong dahil kay Chase kaya ka nagkakaganyan." Moka seriously concluded
"Ano pa nga bang pwedeng ibang dahilan?"
I shook my head. I am aware the heavy atmosphere I'm causing and I don't know how not to....
BINABASA MO ANG
I'll Never Love Again
Short StoryJulia don't believe in love, not until Aries effortlessly sent her tingling sensations. Eventually, even without trying, she fell. Aries Chase was the first person she was in love with, and after him? None. He was her first and her very last. This i...
