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June 22, 2018
YN. It's been four days since the love of my life left this earth. I can't comprehend how I feel or what I feel right now. Having to hear the news from his mother who was having a nervous breakdown. Having to comfort aiden and everyone. Not going on social media because I know that gruesome video is plastered everywhere. Crying and screaming my heart out behind closed doors and at late hours. He was 20 years old, so young. And all of this happened because they wanted his money so bad. They just had to shoot him and take his life away. Why him?
I was currently getting ready for bed as sora and titan came in. I think they feel everyone's emotions as laid in the bed, looking at me. I tired my hair up and laid down, rubbing their heads. I soon after fell into a deep sleep.
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I was woken up by Titan growling at something in the room. I was confused because no one is in here but me and he doesn't growl unless...I looked over in the corner to see a dark figure. I was instantly scared but somehow calm. Who could this be?
"Who is that in the corner?" I said while grabbing my pepper spray.
"Woah too much dip on ya chip mamas." The figure said while laughing.
Mamas? No one ever calls me that but Jah...it can't be him can it?
"Come out from the corner and show yourself."
The moonlight was shinning through my balcony doors so I was sure to get a good look at whoever it was. As soon as I said what I said, the figure slowly came forward. I looked at it and could not believe my eyes. Purple dreads that were fading into blue, his denim jean jacket with his hoodie and his favorite burgundy shorts and his air forces. It's him but how is he here right now? I suddenly started to cry as I looked at him. He grinned weakly, knowing how much everything affected me and came over.
"Just breathe and calm down mamas. It's okay." He said while hugging me.
"No it's not jahseh. Everyone is falling apart because you're not here." I said while crying, hugging him tightly.
"I know but I need you to be strong. Everyone is looking up to you and they need that comfort from you."
"I know but how can I be strong when you're not here by my side to hold me close and protect me." I said while looking at him, tears running down my face. "I miss you Jah."
"Trust me mamas I fucking miss you too. I miss everyone and I truly wish I could've stayed. But god has plans for me and you guys." He said while wiping my eyes, kissing my forehead.
"And what's that?"
"I get to be your guardian angel. Even though I'm not here physically I'm here spiritually. And the other thing you have to wait and see by tomorrow." He said while grinning.
