Tris got Raped

Four

"Ready to die?" I ask with despair evident in my voice. How can she be so selfish? What about me? I would never be the same afterwards. I love her and I need my Tris, my ray of sunshine to survive and now she wants to provide not only the earth but me too.

"I do not wish to live. You do not understand what he did to me," she replies simply looking the other way.

She is right. I do not understand. I do not understand how someone not even Peter could do such a sick thing. I do not understand how she could not tell me or Christina or Marlene. I simply do not understand.

Tris her sad, yet striking eyes looking at each one of us here. The girls' tears still flows and Marlene's clothes are still covered in blood.

"I'm sorry about your clothes Marlene ..." Tris said quietly, looking down at the floor. No one has dared to approach her or take her out of fear that she'll break down or erupt but now takes Marlene front edge of the bed and sits there and throws her arms around her. I see how Tris sets to a finally relaxes and squeezes back

"Do not think about it" answers Marlene and smiles "I'm just glad you're okay"

Okay. She is obviously not okay. She was trying to die. She tried to leave us there by ourselves.

"C-can I T-speak to you?" strains Tris in front of Marlene's ear

"Yes" answers Marlene happily

"A-alone?"

"Yes," she answers and gives us all a glance that we should wait outside. I wonder what it is that she cannot tell me. If she ever will trust me again. Or if she will ever forgive me because I was not there for her. I clearly remember the day when everything changed. But I did not know what had happened or how changed Tris would be just overnight.

I sit in the waiting room at the hospital, waiting. I hear a distant cry and realize it comes from Tris room but soon realizes that it is not just a crying but two. That it comes from both Marlene and Tris. So I get up and tap on the door

"Is everything all right?" I ask nicely

"T-Tobias ... You c-enter .." answers Tris and I recoils that she used my real name in front of Marlene. She promised not to tell anyone. Anger bubbling up suddenly in me and I no longer have sympathy for what she has gone through. When I come into the room sits Tris there with his hands to his mouth and looks squashed

"It ... it just slipped out!" she whispered as a tear runs on her cheek

"I do not want to hear" I say loud and I see how Marlene gets up

"Tris, you have to tell him. I'll be outside if you need me," she says with tears filled voice and leaves the room. The tears still running down the cheeks of Tris and I see regret in her eyes.

"I'm so sorry Tobias" she whispers but I ignore her excuse

"What would you tell me?" I ask hard with an icy glance at her. She recoils and shrinks in bed. I scared

'Do not hate me," she says low, and for the first time in weeks, she meets my eyes and all I see is pain. My anger is gone and I slr me down in the chair and takes her hand

"Never' I reply softly and I hear how she draws a deep breath

"I'm pregnant' and I feel a smile finds its way on my face. Before the incident, we tried to get pregnant. It would never really work out so that she now sit here and tell me that I should become a dad is pure happiness.

"How far?' I ask with joy in my voice. She looks down at the sheet she has legs and I see tears running down her cheeks.

'About three weeks ...' she replied quietly, and I have time to think about why she is not happy about this. It was she who convinced me that it was time. "I do not know whose it is ..." she says, and then my whole world is falling apart. It may be Peters. That's why she is not happy about it. That is why she is crying and that was why she needed to talk to Marlene. I get up and walk out of the room and I hear her voice desperate cry for me but I just keep out of the hospital and I leave her there.