𝐦𝐮𝐭𝐞 ; 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞! ⇄ | z.herron |

𝐱𝐯𝐢𝐢.

ZOEY

the nights at pollen's house are rough. though he is always right beside me snoring softly i cant help but feel as if im alone.
i had crept into bed after the incident and i don't think he was fully awake to realize i had finally came out of the bathroom.

i miss za—

things with pollen are good. he sees a future awaiting us, all i have to do is step over the line that tells me 'no'. simple. easy.

I turn away from facing pollen as he continues his sessions of snoring, it's so quiet inside I can hear my own breathing. i dont enjoy the quiet. it floods you with thoughts, so many thoughts. to many to even bare.

zach would never let those thoughts flood me.
But pollen would.

"po-pollen." I shake him awake. he doesn't budge but instead opens on eye and hums.

"hm?"

"i cant sleep."

he groans and turns to his side since he was on his back.
"zoey it's 3 in the morning just shut your eyes." he advises. whenever i couldn't sleep at Zach's he and i would keep each other company, it didn't matter how tired he was. maybe pollen had something he had to be up for tomorrow.

why are you comparing them, Zoey? You're in a happy relationship.

"yeah you're right, sorry." i reply to pollen shutting my eyes- or at least trying too. "love you." i whisper softly, but i couldn't help but feel tense when saying so.

"i love you more," he mumbles sleepily before he's completely back asleep.
but i just can't seem to fall back asleep.

pollen hates when you grab a midnight snack he always criticizes it and calls it incredibly unhealthy. i disagree. you should be able to enjoy a midnight snack. especially if that consists of going to a local fast food restaurant.

i carefully slipped out of bed, making sure to grab my phone on the bed stand beside me as i walked out the room.
     i kept the door partially cracked and i thank pollen's ears for hating that creaking noise the door had and getting rid of it.

pollen is on a strict diet, everything he owns is plant base and comes from his family's heritage company of plants on a open land they've had for decades.
i couldn't and wouldn't support the motive though. it's just- it was never right.

the air is cold. like extremely body aching cold. but it didn't matter because a coffee and donut sound way to appetizing. especially if all you eat for breakfast is bitter no salt no sugar porridge.
i don't judge pollen. i could never.

"excuse me ma'am- we need to get by." i had been standing right in front of the lit up restaurant, if it even counts as one. i was debating. should i go in? or is it like betraying pollen? i dont want to betray him- i never would. "ma'am," the voice repeated until i spun around to address the complaint.

"sorry i- daniel?!" my eyes found the blonde i had been almost hoping to run into. Daniel. it wasn't zach but he was the closet to zach. "h-hey."

his smile is weak and his hands are deep in his pockets.
"hey, zoey." he replies firmly. "i have to go in, so if you don't mind."

"oh- no yeah cours'." i step aside and watch him walk inside the place i had intended to enter.

i cant be mad at him. but just as i want to step inside and talk to him i hear a familiar sleepy voice, and an a car rumbling behind me.

"zoey. what. the. Fuck!" i flinch at the harsh words but turn around anyways, and meet pollen's aggravated expression.

i clutch tightly to my phone, maybe in hopes i had someone to call.

"p-pollen- i was just going for a walk."

"You fucking—!" he pauses.
i can feel the parking lots stares. i could feel daniel's stares from through the thin glass window.

"pollen le-let's just go home, alright?"

"you were trying to fuck em', is that what it is?!" he points to the wide eyed daniel who nosily staredfrom the other side of the window.

"po-"

"Is that what you are, Zoey? A fucking slut." , "get off the curb, Zoey. you're going home."

i hear the door behind me open.
"the fuck she is." daniel. it's daniel.

i know my sigh of relief is visible since the air is cold but i couldn't help but to hope no one really took notice.

pollen ignored the loud remark and gestures for me to come over. "Zoey, it's fucking freezing. do i have to remind you twice?" pollen walks up to the curb and takes me by my wrist.

he's just looking out for me.

"yeah, okay."

"what the actual hell." daniel declined the offer for me himself as he pushes pollen a set back. "dude back off, you're obviously hurting her, and she clearly doesn't want you."

"leave us alone." he finds his way back to my hand.

"p-pollen maybe we should wait a second." i suggest and my suggestion is heard- only it's heard from not pollen but daniel.

"zoey i can take you home, or if you want you can stay with the boys, just.. you gotta get away from this asshole."

"i think you should let her decide herself, dipshit." pollen declares. "c'mon zoey he's just tryna mess with your head."

"then let her fucking decide, you self centered prick."

that sets pollen off.

N O T E ;
pls let this be redemption daniel?

HEYYYYY BEAUTIFULSSSSSS !

guess who's back :))))

ME

that's right it's been fucking forever and now I'm back!
I hope you all missed me lots Bc I missed you all so very much!!!

Super sorry tho for this ass chapter I intended to write it more better but this is just what I came up with!

More chapters will be posted this Friday I have them all ready I just don't feel like posting them all at once! So enjoy this tiny redemption chapter!

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