𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 ⋆ lee taeyeob [discontinued]

helpless

3:34pm

i finally wake up groaning . Urgh , my head's a little fuzzy and I had a weird dream about butlers . Wait , why is my bed wet ? And why white ?

4:01pm

Nine can't even explain the mess I made and he seems flustered to even talk about it . 

4:08pm

He changes my bedsheets and dumps them into the laundry basket . "So , sir . Any plans ?" Nine asks . "I'm not so sure ..." my voice falters off and i'm lost in thought . What do I have to planned today anyways ? Nine shakes his head and replies silently that he'll contact Sungho , leaving me on my bed thinking of a lot . Including butlers . Jesus Christ , brain stop it with the damn butlers .

5:47pm

It so seems that I have fallen asleep again and i am being shaken awake my Nine . "Sir , sir . Sungho is ready to take you out for a movie ." Movie ? I haven't even showered yet ! Then my head reels back into a throbbing pain . More memories come flooding back in like a tsunami and I drown in my own thoughts . I put a hand to my forehead , flinching at the intense pain . I suddenly feel a certain emotion and all I can think is ... theatre . This emotion is very overwhelming and I just can't think properly . 

Nine's voice sounds alien to me now . My chest hurts and my eyes sting .

"Junhyung , your'e so childish!" the man cackles at my pose . "You should see yourself !"his voice makes Yoojung's heart flutter . So gentle . So humorous . So bubbly . So fun . "We better get going before we miss the movie ," I sigh and the man nods in agreement . He holds up the camera that he swears he's seen before . "I'm surprised you invited me instead of Kyubin ," I put my arms against my chest as he gives a cheeky smile . He holds up the camera steadily at me and answers back .

"You really need to stop being so grumpy ," the man teases , pulling his hair behind his ear . "I'm not grumpy , I just want to know why me ?" I snap quietly . "Aw , because I know you need someone ." I blush at his reply and I turn beetroot in fluttery rage . "I-I do NOT !" he cackles again . "Your'e horrible ,"

7:45pm

I can't believe I'm still alive . 

8:00pm

I am sitting with Sungho beside me in a pitch dark room , ready to watch a movie , obviously . But I can't stop feeling this ache in my chest . In my heart . Urgh . I really can't think of anything but Junhyung . I now know his name is Junhyung , and he has relationships with Kyubin . But I also know Kyubin but he doesn't seem to know me .... OR HE'S PRETENDING NOT TO KNOW .

I internally gasp at this new-found detective phase . 

8:09pm

I can't . I just can't enjoy this movie . I had a memory where Junhyung KISSED ME . I'm gay . Jesus christ .

8:12pm

I threw up everything . I didn't even eat anything yet but some popcorn . And I feel disgusted and flustered and fluttery and i feel hot and prickly and my stomach is filled with icky butterflies .

9:27pm

Sungho drives me home in the heavy rain that crashes onto my car . Thinking of how I kissed a guy is making me all the emotions i felt in the toilet . But I still can't figure out that annoying feeling in my chest . God , what is that ?

11:34pm

It's .....

heartbreak .