Raabta - Completed

For Sushant Singh Rajput

Hi everyone, hope you all are doing good. First of all, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 10K+ READS AND 1K+ VOTES!!!! I hoped that by the time I end this book, I atleast have 10k+ reads, but you guys made it possible wayyyy before that. Thank you so fucking much for all the love and support, to those who have been since the beginning and the ones who discovered the book recently. I love you all wayyy too much.

I have been a part of stan culture since 2013, all these years been part of different fandoms. I joined wattpad back in 2016 and I have fallen in love in love with so many books. I always had an urge to write my own. I had different ideas, storyline and wanted to work on them but I was always scared of the outcome so I never really worked towards it. But something happened recently, that changed my mind towards everything.

Sushant Singh Rajput was someone I adored since the beginning of his career, when he first starred in Pavitra Rishta. I desperately wanted him to win Jhalak and I remember my family voting for him like crazy but alas, he lost. But he achieved something much more significant. A place in all our hearts.

I remember being so happy when he was offered PK as his third film, when he was roped in to play Dhoni and he did justice to the character with so much conviction and when he became the first Indian male to do a Vogue shoot with Kendall Jenner. Chhichhore is a film I relate to so much and I love watching that film whenever it comes on my television.

To this day, I feel my heart break a little when I see his death scene in Kai Po Che and Kedarnath. I remember watching both the films in Cinema, and as we left the theater, my mind occupied with one question, "Why did he die? He did not have to die."

And the same question pops up in my mind every time I see a post dedicated to him or see his picture anyone. For me, Sushant never died by suicide. I refuse to believe he did. He was murdered of his talent, of his opportunities, of his craft and of his beautiful, cheeky smile.

It is really hard for him to get over his death for some reason. I feel so much pain and guilt that I was not able to appreciate him, knowing he was underrated compared to his contemporaries. His death was a wakeup call for me to start doing things that I have avoided doing in the past. One of them being, writing one book. 

As I mentioned in the first part, this book is based on another book called "Escapade" by Dolce. I discovered that book wayy back in 2015 and its one of my go to books whenever I have nothing new to read. For some reason, It felt idle for me to adapt it into a SidNaaz version. I have watched BB since Season 2 but never have I ever connected to two contestants as much as I have connected to SidNaaz.

This book  is dedicated to Sushant in many ways. 

The name 'Raabta' is from his film. I planned to actually title it 'Dil Bechara', the name of his next and last film but didn't go ahead with. But the word doc on my laptop is still named that. 

Sidharth's dog is named Fudge, which is Sushant's dog's name. 

There is going to be another dedication, you'll know soon once we come to that.

But yes, this book is me taking a risk to put something out there for you all to read and I am glad you all love it. We have reached half-way to the book (i guess), but hopefully I'll write another one that will be entirely MINE. That will happen if I am not over SidNaaz,

Sushant's last film 'Dil Bechara' is releasing on 24th July, the trailer dropped yesterday. And I have been feeling a bit down because of that. Please watch the trailer, if you haven't already. Its based on the book "The Fault in my Stars". I loved the book, was not really fond of the film (pls don't hate me, I am more of a book person) but it was really hard to watch the trailer without getting emotional.

Watching the film is gonna be hard for all of us, but I am sure we all are going to. One last time, for Sushant.

So yes, thanks for coming to my ted talk, lol. I love Sushant and he will always have a part of my heart. I'll forever be his fan. I hope he finally found peace wherever he is. 

The next chapter will be updated tomorrow (hopefully). 

Thank you so much. I love you all.

Love and Happiness. 

-Shivani. 

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