𝓗𝓲𝓼 𝓑𝓪𝓫𝔂

The Morning Before A New Beginning

Bella's POV
Yesterday morning wasn't a very good morning After the night before in which I don't really remember much after Luke had brought me upstairs All I could remember is crying myself to sleep in his arms which just makes me wanna cringe Ive never liked showing my feeling like that. Keeping my feeling to myself is the best for me because if and when someone leaves me I'm back to taking care of myself and I'm tired of explaining my problem to the next person if there just gonna leave anyway. Also I'm not really speaking to talia because we both know what her putting me in little space would do which is break down and we Both know I didn't want.

But anyway back to my day yesterday Luke had the unbelievable decision to wake me up at the ungodly hour of 5 in the morning to take me on a fucking walk HE WOKE ME UP FOR A WALK. Then has the audacity to get mad at me for laying on the side walk. " Bella get up we haven't even left the complex yet" to which I just stayed lying down he tried to get me to but I just went limp.

After I think like 20 minutes he got tired and started to drag me down the side walk I was scratched every now and then from the sidewalk which I was okay with it for a minute or two but it started to burn so I got up. We started to walk but I got tired quickly and I wanted to get carried so I stopped walking. After luke took a few step he realized I stopped he looked at me gave me a look which made me giggle " why did you stop we still have some more to go" I just lifted my hands in response to his comment " carry me I'm tired" in all seriousness I really just wanted to go back to sleep I didn't understand why we had to be up so early I just wanna go back to sleep " no Bella keep walking" I was just so tired and wanted to get carried so I just decided to walk back to the apartment I was not in the mood to keep walk I wanted to go to sleep

I had been walking the other way not for long but it was still enough to be going places when I was picked up and brought the other way " Luke I
Wanna go back to sleep I'm tired" I whined " it's not luke baby girl it's Ryland" he was talking very softly and it was pissing me off " let me fucking down Ryland" he let me off his shoulder and let me walk by my self " and you don't need to follow me either I need to find luke" at that point I was one tied two mad and three confused because luke really just left me " luke called me since I live around here and told me to walk you back to your apartment since you decided to leave him to walk alone" he scoffed in his sentences as if he had a problem " well thanks but no thanks I can walk home by myself I've done it plenty of times and if anything I would most definitely not want to walk with you and I have no clue why he would do that either" The way I said it came out a lot harsher but at this point the shit he's given me he deserves it.

"Can you just not be a brat for two seconds and let me walk you home " he spat and me " No Ryland I will not I got not an apology nothing you just up and left me I'm walking by myself and I'm not taking no for answer I just want to go back to damn sleep and seems no one gets that today I had a terrible day yesterday and I woke up in little space and now I'm fucking big because of you Jesus give me a break" after my big blow up I just began to walk away and called luke

CALL STARTED
B: Luke are you fucking serious ryland RYLAND are
L: watch your tone with me little girl
B: no you don't get that your calling me by my name because I'm definitely not little today when I could be
L: Bella I'm sorry I just wanted to go on a walk
B: and when I got tired you didn't wanna fricking carry me
L: I thought you were jo
B: well I wasn't
L: I'm sorry
B: your not it's fine I'm just gonna walk home bye
L: wai
CALL ENED

I made it back home and trudge my way up the stairs before I made it to my door talia had peek her head out of her door " you already know" I said in a exhausted voice she opened her door slowly and I saw luke and ryland sitting on the edge of her be "yeah" and at the sight of them I turned and shut my door